Nerdology 101: The Terminology

Heys! Welcome back, dearest nerdy readers (lol). Thank you once again for joining me. This week, I want to take some time out to go over some standard nerdy terminology. My hope is to make our communities more accessible to those who are curious, but still trying to find their footing. With that being said, let’s get into some Nerdology!!!!

Quick Search Info (as always, listing for anime and books are longer. I’m more personally involved in these nerdoms. I game, but I don’t game nearly enough to know everything about the subject):

1. Terms used in this blog

2. Terms used when talking about Anime/Manga

3. Terms used when talking about Books

4. Terms used when talking about Gaming

Terms Used Frequently in this Blog:

Here’s some general nerdy terms I use (non-specific to the niches that fall under the nerdom):

Nerdom - The nerdy community as a whole. Meant to combine nerd and kingdom.

Nerdology - The name of my blog. Technically, it can mean the study of the nerdom (people, culture, etc.).

Both of these terms are used by others within the nerdom, so they’re good to know.

Anime Terms:

These terms mostly have to do with anime/manga:

Anime - An animated show or movie made by Japanese people.

Manga - A serialized style of story that is often the basis for anime made by Japanese people.

Shonen - Anime or manga targeting young boys. Most of your mainstream anime fall under this umbrella (Naruto, Bleach, Demon Slayer, My Hero Acadamia, etc.).

Yaoi - Anime featuring a love story between two men.

Yuri - Anime featuring a love story between two women.

Harem - A single male character ends up with multiple female love interests.

Reverse Harem - A single female character ends up with multiple male love interests.

Ecchi - An anime or manga with a lot of fanservice or sexual content.

Isekai - An anime or manga where the main character dies and is reborn into a new world.

Slice of Life - An anime of manga where the story is based in every day life.

Josei - Anime or manga made for adult women.

Seinen - Anime or manga made for adult men.

Mecha - Anime or manga featuring robots.

Shojo - Anime or manga primarily made for young girls.

Note: A lot of these definitions have gendered definitions, but anyone can watch and enjoy any of them. Many do. The only real difference is in the fact that anime targeting boys/men focus on action/adventure and anime targeting girls/women focus on romance/emotion. Many of the action/adventure still have romance in them. Many of the romance/emotion still have action in them. I’ve watched anime that fall under all of these and more at some point or another. Please remember to be inclusive.

Bookish Terms

Romantasy - The combination of Romance and Fantasy, usually in equal parts. (Romantic fantasy and fantasy romance are terms for if the book leans more one way than the other).

Dark Romance - Romance books featuring a lot of dark, potentially triggering content. Dark in this case meaning high spice, kink, and sexually explicit content. (In same cases, like the term Dark Romantasy or Dark Fantasy, people may use the word dark to describe dark storylines, gothic settings, etc, or they might still be describing the spice. For clarities sake, I describe The Fate of Angels and Demons as Romantasy with Dark Romance like spice so there’s no mistaking that I’m talking about the kink/sexual content in it).

HEA - Happily ever after

HFN - Happy for now (usually in reference to a series where the couple ends the book together and happy, but it’s implied that things might not stay that way).

FMC - Female Main Character (there can be two FMC’s in sapphic/WLW romance)

MMC - Male Main Character (there can be two MMC’s in gay/MLM romance)

*I was recently asked about nonbinary characters. Just saying MC since “main character” isn’t inherently gendered might be okay. Alternatively, if you want to specify that the character is nonbinary, NBMC . Ultimately, though, I’m not nonbinary. I can’t decide how they want to be referred to in fiction. These are just options that are available for speaking inclusively in the interim. If a nonbinary person would like to share their preferred term for referring to a nonbinary main character, they’re free to send me a message via the form on the home page of this website and I will update this based on that. The same applies to other gender identities. I do read a range of works written by nonbinary people, but I really haven’t seen a specific term emerge for characters, so please feel free to correct me.

One Bed - A popular book trope where love interests end up at an inn, hotel, shack, or some sort of sleeping place on their journey and there’s only one bed so they just have to sleep together and usually also end up sleeping together.

Enemies to Lovers - A popular book trope where the love interests start out as enemies. Similar terms include friends to lovers, which means the characters start out as friends and become lovers.

Side Character - Character that isn’t the main character.

Smut - Books with a lot of spice. (The word smut does not mean the book lacks literary value, is porn, or anything of the sort).

Spice - Sexually explicit content in books.

ARC - Advanced Reader Copy (Ebooks or physical books sent to readers to encourage early reviews of a title that is not yet released).

ALC - Advanced Listener Copy (An ARC, but it’s an audiobook).

Beta Reader - Early readers that provide an author with feedback early on in the manuscripts development.

NetGalley/BookFunnel/Booksprout - Platforms for distributing, finding, and receiving pre-release ARC’s and ALC’s. Netgalley is best for large publishers and popular books, but is also the place new ARC readers are most likely to be rejected. BookFunnel and Booksprout are cost-friendly alternatives mostly used by indie authors. On all of these platforms, the reader pays nothing.

Indie Author - Independent author. Self-publishers or those with small presses.

Trad - Shorthand for Traditional publishing.

Gaming

TTRPG - Table top roleplaying game (like Dungeons and Dragons)

MMORPG - Massively Multi-Player Online Roleplaying Game (like Genshin Impact).

RPG - Roleplaying game. Game where you assume the role of a fictional character and have a real impact on the storyline and character development.

First-Person Shooter - A game where the primary mechanic is shooting (like Call of Duty).

Open-World - A gaming world where you can wander freely and without restriction.

Sandbox -A gaming world that is inbetween Open and Closed world. You have a degree of freedom, but not total freedom.

Cozy - A relaxed game (like Stardew Valley).

Farming - A game where growing food/materials is the primary focus (like Stardew Valley).

Otome - Romance games, primarily in the anime/manga style (like the Ikemen games).

Okay, we covered quite a few terms here. There are still a lot I haven’t talked about, but these should be enough to help you start connecting with the nerdom and engaging in conversation without feeling totally confused, or start engaging with a part of the nerdom that you haven’t previously. I’ll see you back next week for another segment of Nerdology 101. Don’t forget to stop by the STORE and buy a copy of my book, The Fate of Angels and Demons, coming April 1st. Have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Nerd Culture - Level 1

Nerrrrddddsssss! I missed ya. Welcome back to Nerdology 101. If you’re new here, good. This week is for you. I’m Maria Levato. This is my website and my blog, poke around if you want to get to know me. This week, though, you can call me sensei because I’m going to teach you all about Level 1 of the Nerdom. Want to watch anime, but don’t know where to start? I got you. Want to join the raving lunatics over on BookTok, but struggling to figure out where to start? You’re in the right place. Want to start gaming but aren’t sure what games align with the things you already like? Right this way. Let’s get into some Nerdology and find you the nerdy haven you long for!

What is a “nerd”? Like, what does being a nerd truly mean?

We use the word nerd so loosely. It’s meaning has evolved a ton over time. Depending on who you’re talking to, you could get any of the following definitions:

1. A smart person,

2. A smart person, but specifically one who’s niche is in a STEM subject,

3. Someone who consumes a lot of media (any format), that doesn’t fit into the mainstream,

4. Someone who consumes specific formats of niche media,

Anyone with a niche/special interest.

My answer? All of these people are nerds. Just like any other self-identifier, the word nerd is open to interpretation and the community isn’t a monolith. Personally, I’m a nerd by all but one of these definitions. (I have all the love for you, STEM nerds. Doctors, medicine, research, I’m all for it when done ethically. It’s just not the thing that excites me). For the sake of this blog post, though, let’s focus on the niche media people since I can help you all out the most.

What is “niche media”?

Niche media is something that a majority of people probably haven’t heard of or consumed. For example, the Marvel Cinematic Universe is mainstream. They were giant, blockbuster films that most people have probably come into contact with (or at least that was the case, but post Endgame there was a pretty big dip in Marvel viewership). However, the Marvel comics are where I would say niche starts. Most people, in general, probably know they exist, but don’t read them. Yet, within the comic-reading community, most people have probably read a Marvel comic. This can apply to anything. Anime is pretty mainstream these days, but I’d still consider it niche-ish since it hasn’t become something a majority of people watch yet. Within that, though, there’s a giant difference between Naruto and One Piece, which are substantially closer to mainstream, and Kamisama Kiss, which is niche no matter how you cut it. So, as you can see, there are levels to the concept, but in general, niche media pertains to obscurity. It’s not a perfect definition, but it is one I think makes a solid benchmark definition for someone starting out.

So, where do I start?

Ah, the age old question. Most of these lists, from what I’ve seen, recommend whatever is most popular even if it isn’t aligned with your interests or if it’s just not attainable for someone who doesn’t already do this. I’m not going to do that. Instead, I’m going by subject matter. Under each subject, I’ll make a few nerdy recs. You can look at them all, or if there’s a subject you think you’re more likely to enjoy than others, you can just look at it. The subjects will be fantasy, romance, and action.

Fantasy

Books:

Lord of the Rings - J.R.R. Tolkien (best for those who are okay taking some time to wrap their heads around the world and diving into a series. No romance or spice).

Zachary Ying and the Dragon Emperor - Xiran Jay Zhao (best for those who want an easy, short, single book read. No romance or spice.).

Lore of the Wilds - Analeigh Sbrana (best for those who want a series, but one that’s easier to wrap your head around if you’re new to fantasy. Has romantic element, no spice).

Our Vicious Oaths - N.E./Nia Davenport *author uses both (best for fantasy w/ romance and spice).

Anime:

Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood (Best if you’re looking for a single season, quick watch with minimal fluff).

Seven Deadly Sins (Best if you’re looking for a good balance of action, emotion, and goofiness that has multiple seasons but isn’t too long).

Bleach (Best if you’re looking for something long but also easy to watch).

Games:

Genshin Impact (Best if you’re looking for easy gameplay, open-world, great storytelling, wonderful animation).

Pokemon (Best if you’re looking for easy, digestable, turn based combat w/ open world exploration, low complexity) - Least Challenging.

D&D Online (Best if you want customizable characters and storylines in an open world setting) - Most Challenging.

Romance

Books:

The Love Con by Seressia Glass (Best for no spice & FM)

I Think They Love You by Julian Winters (Best for low spice & MM)

No Boy Summer by Amy Spalding (Best for no spice & FF)

Lights Out by Navessa Allen (Best for moderate spice, dark humor, & MF. This is also the only rec in this section with multiple books).

Anime:

My Happy Marriage (Best for convergence of romance, fantasy, and historical, ongoing, currently 2 seasons. MF).

Sasaki and Miyano (Best for BL, 1 season).

Citrus (Best for FF).

TV:

X.O. Kitty (Best for multiple seasons, romantic ups and downs, teenage loves, and discovering oneself)

Outlander (Best for long watch, multiple elements/crossover, spicy, can be graphic/violent).

Bridgerton (Best for multiple romances across multiple seasons, spicy).

Movies:

To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before (Best for multiple movies & follow through after the romance is made official, no spice).

After (Best for multiple movies, some spice, and high tension).

Five Feet Apart (Best for emotional damage, no spice).

Action (Not many recs here. Just some anime. Action isn’t really my area of expertise).

Record of Ragnarok (Best for back-to-back brutal battles to the death).

Naruto (Best for if you want awesome fights and you’re willing to wait for them).

Bleach *again (this show has an amazing animation style that makes it’s fights legendary, but again, you have to wait for them).

That’s about all for this week, loves! Hope this list helps you find your way into the nerdom, or if you’re already in it to discover something you haven’t already. See you back next week for another segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Short Story

Welcome back, nerds! On this weeks segment of Nerdology 101, I’m sharing a little short story I wrote after a trip to Ireland a few years back. It is definitely minature (5400 words), so it should be a quick read that’ll let you get to know a little bit of my style. This piece is paranormal romance. It was better suited than my usual romantic fantasy style since it was never intended to be anything but a way for me to express my love for Dublin after my trip. Still, I thought it might be cool to share it. Also, I never gave it a title. You’re welcome to suggest any ideas you have in the comments.

Story

Stepping off the plane, I relish in the fact that I’m back on Irish ground. It was an eight-hour flight from JFK. I won't deny that I'm exhausted, but that doesn't inhibit my excitement as I rush to grab my luggage off the carousel. I fidget, impatience overcoming me as I wait for it. Luckily, it's only about fifteen minutes before the suitcases full of clothing, hygienic musts, and magical ingredients arrive. After I have it, I step out. There's a line of taxis waiting to load passengers. The yellow sedans are lined bumper to bumper, each with drivers that patiently await travelers. Many of the engines start when the hoard of arrivals I’m surrounded by emerge from the airport. I get into one and my assistant files in the other side, then addresses the driver. "We're heading here."

The driver looks at the written address Shi hands him on a notepad. He must know the place because he starts driving without plugging it into the GPS. As we drive, I stare out the windows at the luscious greenery and beautiful buildings in Dublin. It isn't long before we arrive. When I enter the hotel, there's a bit of apprehension. I wanted to keep most of my money for activities, so I opted to book the cheapest hotel in the area. I hoped that wasn't a mistake.

As the concierge greets me, I look around the lobby, then head over. It doesn't seem too bad at all. I check in and head to my room. It's small, but clean and comfortable. Shi and I will be fine in here. While Shi unpacks, I focus on clearing my mind. I take a long, deep breath. Inhale, one... two... three... Exhale, one... two... three... My intentions become clear to me as the racing thoughts of the day-to-day fade until they're far, far away. My desire is the foremost thought in my stilled mind. Now, I know what materials I need. Wandering around the hotel room, I search for the supplies I need. First, to the bathroom. I collect some fresh water into my silver chalice marked with ancient Egyptian hieroglyphs I had inscribed onto the metal. To purify it, I light a match, then toss it inside. I know from experience how effective fire is as a purifier. This isn't the only ingredient I need though. I wander until I spot a cabinet to the left of the hotel’s microwave sitting on the small kitchenette counter. Shi rolls his eyes. "I just put that away, Kita."

I hum. "And now I need it."

He scoffs, but I can hear the smile behind it without even looking his way. I collect rosemary, a protective herb that only allows positive forces into my life. Next, some thyme. It complements the rosemary well since it’s great for spiritual healing and also acts as a secondary safeguard. Of course, I can't forget the cinnamon either.

Finally, I’m done. I add all the selected materials to my chalice and set it on a makeshift altar. I light the candles on the sides of it, then align the two candles and make a triangle from them and the chalice. I choose a rose quartz from my crystal collection and set it meticulously in the center of the triangle.

Having set the altar, I take a few more of those long, deep breaths before chanting a ritualistic blessing over it. "O', I beseech thee, heed my call. Make my will into fate, accept the offering I make on this day."

With that, my altar is set for the day.

After showering, Shi, and I head straight out, ready to explore and get some food. He found this small restaurant about a block away. It was on the same side of the Liffey our hotel was. PHX Bistro was its name. This is our first date. I've known him for years, but this feels different. It's not like I'm just going to hang out with Shi, my childhood friend and present-day assistant. Suddenly, he's a man and I'm a woman. We don't know each other in that sense. Of course, that isn't to say that I don't want to get to know him in this new way. It's exciting. It's just that I wish it were easier. His asking me out seemed so random. It happened on the plane as we crossed the Atlantic. It's as if he just got tired of searching one day and decided to settle for me. He was usually so non-committal, prioritizing attraction and hook-ups. None of the others resembled me in personality or appearance. I can't help but wonder if I'm just the easiest option to pursue now that he's randomly decided he wants to settle down.

I sit down across from him at the candle-lit table, observing the atmosphere of the restaurant. It's not too busy inside, but not too quiet either. The place he chose is nice enough; intimate and romantic. I particularly like the red decor. Red is my favorite color. He smiles.  "Hey, Ki. You look great."

 My heart flutters a bit, but I make sure the only thing he sees is an eye roll. The waitress asks for my drink order before I can reply. After looking over their comprehensive selection, I settle on a wine. After she walks away, I mutter. “Flirt.”

A mischievous smirk graces his face. Has he always been this beautiful? That jawline is so sharp it could pierce vibranium, if it were real.  "That I am, but at least you know that I'll only be flirting with you from here on out."

"I hope so. I'd hate to think that you're just using me as a placeholder until someone more ideal comes along."

His face distorts until nothing but disgust is visible. "I would never. Don't you know you are the ideal."

"I am not."

He laughs so hard it blows out one of the candles as he takes my hand. The soft scent of the vanilla smoke fills the air between us. "You are everything to me, Kita."

I could hear the sincerity in his tone. This was Shi, the man. In that moment, I finally knew that this wasn't a game to him. He wanted me, and damn, did that make me want him.

The waitress returns before I can lose myself in the moment too much. We order food too. Then, a dessert. That was amazing. Everything was amazing. I make a note to habitually recommend it to anyone I know who may visit the area. After that, Shi takes me to the Museum of Literature in Ireland, the place I was most excited to go as we were planning. I was in absolute awe as we made my way there. The architecture is so grand and old. I missed Ireland so much. There's a unique energy here. Everyone is friendly and seems happy. It's a city, but not like back in New York. Here, nature and city life find this balance unlike anything I've ever seen.

When we make it to the museum, my fondness for Dublin further intensifies. I fall in love with it all over again as I wander through the exhibits aimlessly, being sure to carefully observe every amazing piece. From the Gaelic Language Movement and the fight for freedom of speech, to the first copy of the first edition of James Joyce's Ulysses, it is all amazing. Still, there was one piece even more inspiring. Looking up at the ceiling you find pages filled with endless red markings, edited manuscripts from great authors whose names will be remembered for centuries more. I think to myself, "My story isn't bad. It's just unedited."

It's the sentiment I think the piece is meant to give off.

After a while, we return to the hotel and relax some. For all the fun of the day, we were here on witch business and tomorrow wouldn’t be as pleasurable. We rest well in separate, queen beds. Some part of me wonders if some day we will be booking single King rooms instead of Double Queens. It’s a nice thought to dream of while I rest, at least.

The next morning, Shi and I get down to business. Our business involves the Onyx Witch, known for her dark magic and dictatorial rule in her territory. She oppresses quite the number of witches, and our job is to find out what her ultimate goals are and see if we can’t protect those she targets.

We head to Dublin Castle first. To most, this is a gorgeous tourist attraction that commemorates the inspirational history of Ireland. However, those of us with the ancient magic of the Celts coursing through our veins know that there is much more to this palace than meets the eye. As we tour the beauty, we pass a guarded hall, prohibited to most visitors. The guard is one of the Onyx Witch’s own though. He verifies my identity via my magic signature and allows me enterance so I can have an audience with her. He prohibits Shi from entering though. He offers the excuse that lower-ranking magic wielders shouldn’t be allowed on this sacred ground I’m about to enter, but I see it for what it is. The Onyx Witch is up to something, and she wants us separated. I have no choice but to allow her to think she is trapping me though. I give Shi a nod and he settles. “I’ll wait for you here, Kita.”

I nod before heading off down the hall. When I get to the entry way to the Onyx Lair, I open it magically and cross over. I find the Onyx Witch sat upon her throne of ash and bones waiting for me. She wears a black cloth that is barely long enough to be called a dress. At least she bothered to cross her legs. She looks to me, “Kita, what brings you to my domain?”

“I’ve come to demand that you cease your oppression of the Herbal Witches in your territory at once, by order of the Interdisciplinary Council of Witches.”

A scowl forms on her face. “I will do no such thing. Since you’re here though, won’t you do me a favor and die for me?”

She attacks with a force so great it could break the barriers and bring down the palace in the non-magic realm. It would kill many and destroy a vital piece of Irish history. I can’t allow that to happen. I reinforce the barriers with my own magic right away, but I can’t protect myself and hold them at the same time. The energy expenditure leaves me all but defenseless. Shi, being keen enough to sense the magic from across realms, acts from the other side. I may outrank him, but he knows that Onyx is much stronger than even I. Getting a sense for the situation, he takes over holding the barriers to give me half a chance to escape with my life. When I feel the weight lift some, I know it. He’s come through for me. I don’t waste a moment before I launch the best counter spell I can muster with such little time and energy. It doesn’t do much, but it does give me a moment to teleport myself back to Shi.

The Onyx Witches rage increases though, causing the barriers to fracture even further. It’s too much for Shi to hold. It’ll kill him. I grab hold of them with my magic again. It takes everything I have to push her back, but I manage, albeit temporarily. That seal I cast won’t hold her for long and I’ve drained myself too much. Without a doubt, I’ll have a case of magic deficiency, which will likely kill me in no time.

Shi and I retreat back to the hotel, and he wards it the best he can. He tends to me enough to extend my time about twenty-four hours, giving us one day to come up with a solution.

I rise from my hotel bed as pain pumps through my body with an intensity I have never experienced before. Oh, how I long to get my hands on that grimoire. It may be the only way. As I walk out the door again, Shi follows, trembling at my side. “But Kita,” he must have realized by now what I’m thinking, “the grimoire of the Jade Witch is said to hold unspeakable power. It’s too dangerous!”

“It’s too dangerous not to!” I hadn’t meant to snap at him, but we both know what would happen to me if I don’t get it. “That grimoire is my only chance at survival, and without me, what’s to keep the Onyx Witch from killing the rest of the Herb Witches. I only have a day left before the disease takes me.”

He sighs. “Yes, twenty-four hours sounds about right. It was a large spell to cast singlehandedly, most witches would have already died of magic deficiency. I’m amazed that you even have the energy to search for the grimoire.”

I walk alongside him, feeling my body already weakening. “That’s true. I may not, but it’s the only way, Shi.”

He seems absorbed in his thoughts as he fails to respond. My attention falls to the details of our surroundings to distract myself as we walk, heading for the teleportation point at the top of Arthur’s Seat. The endless daisies remind me so much of my younger years, training with my covenant in these very fields. Who would have guessed that I’d grow to be the strongest of us, especially given how horrible I was at practical magic? The memories are bright ones, albeit slightly embarrassing. The sound of our laughter can still be heard with each whistle of the winds. This is my home. Without the grimoire, I will fall, and it will burn. I must try.

“There may be another way, Kita.” Shi starts, interrupting my peace. “The Diamond Witch, what if we went to her. She creates antidotes for Magic Deficiency Disease.”

I think a moment. Shi isn’t entirely wrong, but there’s no guarantee that the Diamond Witch is actually capable of making a sufficient antidote for MDD this severe. Healing is more of a side gig for her than a specialty, whereas I know for a fact that the Jade Witches grimoire has a solution because my predecessor told me about it. “No, Shi. If we do that, we risk being told no. We could just lose time by taking that detour. The grimoire is our best bet.”

He nods, accepting my decision as we approach the teleportation point. Immediately, he summons the space-time portal. It looks quite like a blackhole and can be intimidating for inexperienced witches, so I’m not surprised when he winces at the sight of it. We hop through the portal to the abandoned Jade temple. ‘

This temple is in Cairo, Egypt, where the Jade Witch once lived. She fell many centuries ago, but her work still echoes throughout the world. It is probable that she was the most skilled witch to ever live. Her temple reflects that too, even after all this time that it’s been abandoned, it remains spotless. Her menial cleaning spells must have been powerful enough to survive without her constantly feeding them. It’s amazing. Who knows what else her grimoire may hold. If we manage to find it, it may even tell me how to defeat the Onyx Witch myself. If I recall, Onyx was around back then too. She was one of Jades enemies, as she is mine now. I’m sure whatever magic of Jades still exists here will bless me and help me find the answers I need. After all, if I can stop Onyx, Jade may finally be able to rest in peace.

Shi and I search the temple, top to bottom. Yet, in all the tomes and information, the Grimoire of Jade is nowhere to be seen. We don’t give up though. Instead, we search and search, over and over, until eventually, Shi spots something promising.

“Kita, look!” His exclamatory tone reflects the hope he must be feeling. My eyes dart his way, and I see it, a distorted wall. It’s a magic one. Only the most skilled of witches would have noticed it. I’m proud that he had grown enough to see it. I approach the wall, observing it for a few moments.

“You’ll have to do it, Shi. I can’t. I might kill myself faster if I expend much more magic.”

He removes the magic, and we enter into a library filled to the brim with grimoires. Every last one of them were hers. Finding the one we needed in the twelve hours we have remaining would be challenging, to say the least.

We both start scanning the grimoires. Shi moves through them faster than I because he can use magic to help him, whereas I can’t right now. As the hours pass, we both grow nervous that we won’t find what we need on time. All the while, I grow weaker and weaker until I’m not even able to help.

With only one hour left on the clock and myself barely conscious, Shi calls out. “Kita! Kita! I found it.”

He starts to prepare the spell right away. I fight my weakening body to stay conscious just in case he has to as me anything. He does, a few times, and with just thirty minutes left, he’s ready. Shi heals me using its spell and once again, I can fight the Onyx Witch.

Shi

She stands before me and I’ve never been so happy to see her. Her long, kinky curls flow like a waterfall.

“Kita…” I sound so scared, like I’m the one who was dying. “You’re alive.”

The emotional rollercoaster that is her presence; it tears me to shreds. Yet, that quick-witted mind is somehow oblivious; or perhaps its insidious, using her feigned ignorance to make me delirious. It's like Dionysus intoxicated me with the wine called her soul. Every touch is an unwelcome rush of unbridled lust. I can't live without her; she's a must.

“Yeah, Shi.” She takes my hand. “I’m alive, you did great. Thank you.”

To describe her is to steal the air from my own lungs, a heart attack and a stroke rolled into one.  Every emotion is a more difficult one. So complex that I can't even deny that she's one. She's poetry and literature. She's every beautiful thought that I've ever sought. I'd try to resist her, but it would be for naught. Heavens, how does she make me so distraught?

Kita

            Out of nowhere, Shi kisses me. I have no idea what was going through his mind, but I’m glad it was. He saved my life, but more than that, the way he looks at me is just so intense. How could I not fall for him?

            My lips intertwine with his as I kiss him back. It means everything to me. I don’t know how it escaped my notice for so long that he and I belonged together, but right now, it’s abundantly clear as he takes me into his arms and holds me against his chest.

            We stay like that for quite some time before he finally lets go. “So, now what?” He asks me that as if I have any idea.

            I think a while, then look up at him. “We keep reading. Now that the pressure is off, we read through these grimoires until we find something that will help us stop Onyx. No idea is too out of the box. Theorize about how every single one of these spells could be used against her until we find something that works.”

            For three days and three nights, we did exactly that. It took some work, but in time, we found something. It was a risky spell that could just as easily backfire and kill us, but it was our best chance. Jade called it Sever. The spell is exactly as the name implies. Through the power of twelve witches, a full coven, the spell would sever the tie between the target and their magic. However, Jade noted that if the twelve weren’t strong enough, that the spell could decide to sever them from their own magic instead. That’s the thing about spells, there is always some risk. This one was especially unique though. Not many spells required this much risk. Where the hell would we find twelve witches willing to risk losing their magic? Or ten at least, considering that Shi and I would cast with them.

            “We should make a list of twenty witches we think might. Ten that are ideal and another ten that are possible alternates to the ideal.”

            Shi nods, but I continue before he says anything. “Furthermore, if at least five of the ideal ten don’t consent, we can’t risk it. The plan will be dead in the water, and we’ll have to find another way. We can’t risk our power if we are likely to fail because then we can’t fight her either. So, we need to choose wisely.”

            Shi agrees. “Okay, well… Want to start with the New York convent? We know them best.”

            I shake my head. “And every last one of them is lower ranked than you. That would be pointless. They won't have the amount of power we need. We should start with the Dublin Herb Witches. They are her targets, so they are the most likely to want to take this risk.”

            Shi and I get to work, throwing out everything we know about the witches in the Dublin Herbal Sect. We narrow it down to four possibilities. First, the Head Witch of the Hedge Witches. She’s especially talented and had a history of taking huge risks anyway. The only issue is that this might be asking too much. She’s the only reason her people aren’t already obliterated. She’s their best defense. Asking her to do this would be asking her to risk abandoning them and I’m not sure it’s ethically okay to even put her in this position.

            The second option wasn’t ethically bad, but it was less ideal. This witch was young and while her talent is immense, her lack of experience could be dangerous in these circumstances. Given that Shi was casting too, I worried that having two inexperienced people casting with us on talent alone wouldn’t go over well at all. Besides, it would do little to convince other experienced witches to go along with us.

            The third was better. Experienced. but even younger than the second. He had been casting since a young age, thus experience was there, as was talent, but at only thirteen, we would be asking a child to carry the burden and risks adults should be taking and that doesn’t set right with me at all. It’s even more unethical than asking the Head Witch. In my mind, I knew it’s not a road I could ever bring myself to take.

            Finally, the fourth. He was about our age, less experienced, but not inexperienced. He presented no ethical dilemma either.

            Shi sighs. “I say the Head Witch as first choice and the fourth guy as back up. She is more ideal magically and frankly, that’s what we ought to be making choices based on.”

            As much as I hate to admit it, he’s right. “Okay. Put it down.”

            We repeat this process several more times with witches from Japan, Nigeria, Venezuela, Italy, and Bahrain before completing our lists of ideals and alternatives. Geographically, it was all very scattered, so we split up. Shi would work from Egypt out to the east, and I would work from here out to the west. Then, we’d meet back in Dublin to gather the last witch.

            It takes about a week for us to gather them all. We were able to maintain communication throughout it though. Granted, it was all very businesslike and left me missing just being able to talk to him for enjoyment. Besides, we still haven’t had the chance to define our new relationship dynamic and that bothered me more than I’d ever admit out loud. Ultimately, we managed six of our ideal, which I didn’t think was too bad. I decided to focus on that success during the long flight back to Ireland rather than my anxiety about Shi and me.

            Upon our arrival, we all gathered at the Herb Witches hideout in Wicklow, a beach town to the south of Dublin. There, we presented her and our alternative with our idea. “Well, it is bold. You’re right to believe it’s our best shot.” She sighs. “Your point about possibly abandoning my people is well taken, but if this plan has a higher chance of success with me taking part, I must. Besides, I primed my people for my downfall long ago. They know what to do if I fall.”

            With that, we had our full team. We took some time to get to know each other’s abilities better knowing that it would help with breaking down and assigning the many components of the spell we will need to prepare. First, Shi and I explained that we are caster-types from New York and would do best focused on the part of the spell that required us to break down casting dynamics and plans.

            Naturally, the Head Witch of the Hedge Witches was the best choice for herb and plant gathering since it’s her specialty. So, we let her focus on that task. Especially given that I haven’t even heard of most of the plants and herbs listed in Jades grimoire.

            Then, there was the summoning-type witch from Japan. He would be responsible for figuring out the safest way to summon the Onyx Witch into the center of the casting circle to cast the spell. With him, we paired a barrier-type witch from Italy. She’s the daughter of the witch who cast the wards around the Vatican, so I have no doubt that she can figure out how to keep Onyx from attacking us while we cast.

            A spirit-type witch from Nigeria focused on figuring out how to contain the magic energy in this realm alongside a second barrier-type from Venezuela who would help her pin it so it the massive amount of magic energy didn’t leave our immediate surroundings and her people. They would work closely with the previous team as well.

            Finally, the witch from Bahrain who specialized in dark magic would act as a consultant to let the rest of us know how things may differ when dealing with Onyx who also uses dark magic, except much less responsibly. With her, was her assistant, which she never worked without. They reminded me of Shi and I a lot, but with much less annoying romantic and sexual tension interfering.

            Nearly a month passed before preparations were fully completed. All the while, we bore witness to the suffering of the Irish Herbal Witches. It broke each and every one of our hearts to see how our delay had harmed them, costing so many their lives, but we knew we couldn’t be hasty with a spell like this one. We would have but one shot at this, and if we failed, many more would die as a result.

            With the date of casting set, we had a few days while we waited for the new moon. Many assume more powerful spells all require a full moon, but no real witch thinks that way. It all depended on what the purpose of the spell was and for this one in particular, a new moon was perfect since what we wanted was a new beginning for the Herb Witches of Ireland.

            We took the time to rest and prepare ourselves mentally for what was to come. While we did, I thought it best to talk to Shi. If this went bad, I didn’t want to leave any unfinished business. Besides, he deserves to know how I feel one way or another.

            Together, we go on a brief walk for the privacy. Although, I used fresh air as a thinly veiled excuse to create said privacy, I’m sure he, and everyone in our vicinity, knew better. Once we were alone, I spoke. “Shi, there’s something we should discuss.”

            “No. Don’t, please. If you say it now, it’ll feel like a goodbye. I don’t want it to be a goodbye, Kita.”

            “But Shi…”

            He stops me. “But nothing, Kita. You may be my teacher, but I simply can’t listen to you here, gorgeous.” He turns and kisses my forehead. “If things go bad, die knowing I knew what you wanted to say and that I will find you in the next life so we can say it there.”

            Unable to argue, I relent. “Fine. As long as you know.”

            “I do.” He paused, “And you know too, right?”

            I can’t help but smile. “Yeah, Shi, I know.”

            Soon after, we return to the hideout. We ate with the group in the closest thing to a feast the Hedge Witches could offer in this hideout, then partied until midnight before passing out and resting well before the next night came ushering in our potential doom with it.

            The next night, around ten at night, we began the casting. Each of us trying our best to do our part. First, the summoning, followed by the various barriers. Each of which were successful. This was our shot. The herb witch lit the fire and began burning the herbs she gathered. Meanwhile, the dark witch and her assistant began to cast their half of the spell. Shi and I would do the second half when they were done.

            About fifteen minutes passed before that time came. Shi and I stepped up and started casting. We knew it was working when Onyx, yelling irately, began to thrash against the barriers the others were helping to hold in place. She was getting scared.

            Our half of the casting took about another fifteen minutes and then it was done. The Onyx Witch, powerless, fell to the ground. Several of us tested to make sure it wasn’t a ploy before lowering the barriers and calling the Council to take her into custody.

            They arrived within minutes and carried her off with little congratulations. Jerks. Nevertheless, those of us who helps cast gather is a group hug. The Head Witch cried as she realized her people were free again. Once more, they could enjoy the lush Irish greenery and live as their ancestors did. It was for that reason; I knew her tears were of joy and relief.

            After everyone passed around hugs and celebratory words, we went and gathered the herbal witches and escorted them and the Head Witch back to Dublin Castle where they joyously reclaimed their territory. We all stayed the remainder of the night, exhausted from the casting, but the next day, everyone went their separate ways. We would remain close friends, but it was time for us all to return to our own peoples.

            As for Shi and me, we decided not to return to New York. Instead, we petitioned the Council to let us reopen Jades temple in Egypt citing the need for her knowledge and magic if anything like this happened again. They agreed, though not without slapping us with a list of bounds and expectations. It wasn’t like we wanted anything like what Onyx did. Our temple was for the good of all witches, so it didn't bother us much to have to play by their rules.

            One month after opening it, I named Shi’s training completed and certified him to teach others. With that, he enlisted others to train in our temple’s ways. We were doing so well that by the end of the second month, we had nearly one-hundred member witches.

            Then, one night, he and I had dinner to celebrate. To commemorate our first date, we teleported to Dublin and went back to PHX. There, he finally told me he loved me, but he made it worth the wait by doing it on one knee while offering me a ring. Of course, I said yes. We could hardly wait to get married, but there was so much tradition to focus on that it took our temple nearly a year to prepare.

            Impatiently, we waited, and soon enough we were married. Our closest allies, the Herb Witches of Ireland, were perhaps as happy as we were during the wedding. Not that Shi and I could look away from each other long enough to celebrate with them.

End.

There it is! If you enjoyed this piece, I highly recommend checking out some of my books. I have so much more space when writing novels to play with story elements I just don’t in a short story. To get you started, check out The Fate of Angels and Demons! For the special edition hardcover, visit my STORE. For the paperback and ebook, you can find it at just about any major retailer. I’ve accumulated some of the links to those HERE to make it easy. I hope to see you back for next weeks segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: The Sexualization of Anime Characters

Hello, my readers. Welcome to this weeks segment of Nerdology 101. This week I’m going to be talking about the sexualization of anime characters (yes, this does mean I just went on a week long ecchi binge). Let’s get into some nerdology!

Since the beginning, anime has had a habit of making some pretty hypersexualized characters, but especially female characters. Let me make one thing clear now: I’m not against it. I think sexualized characters can be great. If you’ve been reading my blog, books, or really anything I make, you probably know I consider sex needlessly tabboo and fully support the use of it in media of all forms. My point here pertains to how it’s done, not the fact that it happens at all.

From Rias and the girls in High School DxD to Monster Musume’s band of sexy fiends, there are some pretty iconic female characters that happen to be highly sexualized. I love many of them. However, these harem anime consider hypersexualization a convention of their genre. Let’s think about Kamigami no Asobi or Meiji Tokyo Renka for a moment though. These are reverse harem anime. I love them both just as much as I do the first two I mentioned. The concept of a reverse harem anime is that it’s the same genre with the same conventions, but just reverses the roles by making the story about one woman and multiple men. Yet, we don’t see sexualization happen quite as clearly. Instead, reverse harem anime tend to experience hyperromanticism. This reinforces some gender stereotypes I’m not too fond of. Why is it assumed that women and other male-attracted people don’t also want to see the ecchi portrayals of characters they’re attracted to? There seems to be an understanding that women can want sex because in harem anime the women are often the aggressors, but when the roles get reversed suddenly a strange form of purity culture seems to be implemented.

Don’t get me wrong here, we’ve certainly seen some anime that sexualize both male and female characters with ease. Fairy Tail is actually a great example of that. It was slightly more subtle with the male characters (Grey being the exception, there was nothing subtle about that) than it was with the female ones, but characters like Laxus, Freed, and Jellal all underwent some form of sexualization too, but anything even close to what Mira, Erza, and Lucy did. Still, I think this is one of the better examples of what it looks like to spread the fan service out a little across genders.

In the end, I love my ecchi anime. I just wish, in a way, the distribution of what ecchi entails was a little more even. I think it’d be good to see, especially in harem and reverse harem anime which fall under the wider romance umbrella, both hypersexualization and hyperromanticism being evenly distributed regardless of which audiences are being targeted. My solution is to keep the Mimi Marquez’s (Rent) of anime, but also add a few more Magic Mike’s (Magic Mike).

Another point worth exploring is that we also see a similar phenomenon across forms of media. My focus is just on anime right now because I was binging it. While I did just point out two highly sexualized characters of different genders, I think we can all name a plethora of female characters like this but most likely, far less male ones. It has a lot to do with why smut is far more important than people give it credit for. In good literature, you make the reader think about things they may not have otherwise thought about. I think the way men are portrayed in smut is the only time we see men get sexualized in a genre the same way women do no matter the genre or medium. Contrary to what many would argue, that’s cultural commentary in and of itself.

Sex will always be political as long as the world continues to reinforce this stupid idea that men want it and women are it whether they want to be or not. It is already weird enough that people want to decide who other people are and aren’t allowed to have sex with, what gender they are and how they’re supposed to act according to it, but trying to dictate who’s allowed to want sex and who’s allowed to be sexualized based on their gender only makes it all weirder.

Glad we covered that. I hope it makes you think a little more about how characters are sexualized in any sort of media you choose to consume. While you think on it, why don’t you head on over to my STORE and order yourself a copy of the special edition of The Fate of Angels and Demons. Or, if you prefer, you can also order the paperback and ebook. Click HERE for links to multiple retailers. It’s my new book and, let me assure you, both my FMC and MMC are very sexy switches who do lots of kinky stuff together. See you back next week for a new segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Decision-Making for Characters

Hey there! Welcome back to Nerdology 101, the blog where no nerd is left unsatisfied. I'm your host, Maria Levato. This week, I thought we'd talk about writing the tough decisions.

Every writer comes across a point where their character must make a decision. They have to go down one road or another, but sometimes they refuse to cooperate. I recently had a character that remained indecisive from the beginning of the draft right up until the end of the story.

Of course, it made for an awesome character arc because the build up to this moment has been quite the journey. However, we reached the point where a decision had to be made. Presented with two options that had similarly good outcomes for her, but potentially devastating ones for those she cares for, my FMC finally had to make her decision about which one of them she was going to hurt. Yet, when it came down to the wire, she went radio silent on me.

It didn't surprise me when she went quiet. She's a stubborn character with a bit of a bratty side. I had expected that she might throw a tantrum when she had to make this decision. So, here's how I dealt with it. Let's get into some Nerdology!

My FMC is quite used to having her way. Not because she's spoiled, but because she's powerful. Quite frankly, most of the other characters are terrified of her! When she gets stuck having to choose between two things she wants, she doesn't know how to cope. As the author, it's my job to coax her back out and help her make the decisions without speaking for her (It works best for me when I see the character as fully autonomous. I'm not sure if all writers do this, but I do.).

To do that, I write everything. It all comes out. Every moment up until the statement declaring the decision gets written. All the emotions, all the things they say and do leading up to it, everything gets on the page. Then, I write the first part of the statement. To oversimplify it, "I choose ____." At which point, all the character actually has to do is give you one answer or another. One I get answer A or B, the why flows post decision.

My point: Don't let the characters decision paralysis stall the story. 

Let them make the decision on the moment because that's probably what's happening on the page. In most instances, you don't need their decision until very last moment. Give them all that time so they can answer intuitively.

Think of it like going to a restaurant. You know you want something from X place but you don't really know what until you get there and look at the menu. You might even order the same thing you always do, but you'll stare at that menu anyway, and you probably won't actually decide until the waitor/waitress walks up and asks if you're ready to order. It's a realistic and relatable thing for a character to do. Don't you agree?

Thanks for stopping by Nerdology 101. Check back next week for another segment. In the meantime, don't forget to pre-order my upcoming release, The Fate of Angels and Demons. Have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: The Black Nerdom

Hello, lovely peoples! Welcome back to Nerdology 101. In honor of Black History Month (and in spite of the racist fucks in D.C.), this week I’ll be highlighting some of my favorite Black figures from across the Nerdom. These figures span across the alt/punk scene, the anime & cosplay communities, and the bookish world. They’re all great and I’m excited to do this. So, let’s get into some Nerdology!

Music:

Sleep Theory -

Black frontman,

More than 1 POC in band,

From Memphis,

Fav song by them = Static.

@sleeptheoryofficial on IG

https://sleeptheoryofficial.com/

Magnolia Park -

Black frontman,

More than 1 Black person in band,

From Orlando,

Fav song by them = HIGH,

Politically Active (song called Don’t be Racist, anti-ICE activism, fundraiser for Black Trans people).

@magnoliapark on IG

https://www.magnoliaparkband.com/

Anime:

Cosplay:

@accelgirl (IG)

Favorite cosplay: Raven

@jahara_d (IG)

Favorite cosplay: Maki Zenin

Merch:

@isekawaiiii (IG)

T-shirts, Jewelry, Phone Cases, Notebooks

@chibiservin (IG)

Stickers, Art - Focuses on portraying the anime community and popular characters diversely

Books:

N.E./Nia Davenport

Favorite Book/Series: Our Vicious Oaths

Analeigh Sbrana

Favorite Book/Series: Lore of the Wilds

Amber V. Nicole

Favorite Book/Series: Gods and Monsters

La Purvis

Favorite Book/Series: May Chaos Reign Over You

Kamilah Cole

Favorite Book/Series: Arcane Inheritance

Amy Dubois Barnett

Favorite Book/Series: If I Ruled the World

Finally, if you like these recommendations, you can find plenty more at @punkblack (for cosplay, music, anime on IG) and @melaninlibrary (for authors/books on IG). Without these platforms, I might not have heard of some of those I have listed here. They work year-round to promote Black voices and I highly recommend following both platforms.

That’s all for this weeks segment of Nerdology 101. Hope to see you back next Friday. Until then, have a nerdy week (and show out for some of these amazing Black nerds I just pointed out to you)!

Nerdology 101: The Fate of Angels and Demons

Hey there, Booksluts. Thanks for dropping by! For those who are new here, this is Nerdology 101, my blog. Here, I discuss all the nerdy happenings. My name is Maria Levato. I’m an indie author, anime-lover, self-certified kinklord, mythology obsessor, and more. This week, I wanted to talk a bit about my upcoming release, The Fate of Angels and Demons.

This post is spoiler free!

The Fate of Angels and Demons is a 94,000 word (388 page) romantasy featuring [the spicier] elements of a dark romance. The book comes out on April 1st, 2026.

Here’s the official blurb:

Lilly, a priestess sent to prevent a prophecy that foretold the death of her brother (angel), the heir to Oceanica's throne, from unfolding falls in love with the demon king that is said to be her brother’s killer—and goes even more insane than he is.
Michael, the demon king of Tendu, has long resented the royal family of Oceanica due to the part they played in his father’s downfall—little does he know, his obsession with this priestess might lead to his own.

The book will be available in 3 formats. Paperback and ebook, available at most major retail stores through the Ingram catalog, and a special edition hardcover that will only be available via direct purchase. Retail stores and libraries may purchase it via the direct wholesale ordering form at a discount if they are ordering 20+ copies, and it will be available for individual purchases on this website at launch.

The special edition will include the following:

1. Sprayed edges,

2. 2 pieces of character art, 1 NSFW and 1 SFW,

3. A ribbon page marker,

4. Head and Tail bands,

5. Bonus content.

For readers who just can’t wait to get their hands on a copy, though, I am currently accepting applications for e-ARCs. E-ARCs, for those who may not be aware, are advanced reader copies, a number of distributed copies of a book sent to readers prior to release in the hopes that they might review the book and help build buzz. My ARCs are distributed through BookFunnel as a PDF. The minimum requirements are that the reader must be at least 18 years old (in the U.S., if outside of the U.S., whatever the age of majority is in your country), I must also be able to confirm that you’re human (no bots), and finally, the reader must agree not to re-sell, share, or distribute their ARC. To apply for an ARC, fill out THIS form.

Now, time for the fun part!

What is the spice level in The Fate of Angels and Demons?

This book is on fire. It features 7-ish sex scenes, all of which include some form of kink. The love interests develop a switch dynamic (For the vanilla folk: Sometimes he’s dominant; sometimes she is. It’s about a 50/50 split). My favorite spicy scene is the one that got made into the NSFW piece of character art for the special edition. It’s based on a scene in chapter 5. Needless to say, this book is INTENDED FOR AN ADULT AUDIENCE. Even among adults, its content may be triggering to some readers. I do strongly advise that readers review the trigger list thoroughly prior to starting the books (provided on the ARC sign up form, in the front of the book, and in numerous other locations).

What inspired me to write The Fate of Angels and Demons?

Well, to start, Lilly’s character has been around in my writing for a while. If you’re new to my writing, I write The Islands of Rune universe so it can be read as a series or as standalones. The books are connected, but you don’t have to read them all in order to understand the latest release. In part, I do this because my craft tends to improve drastically from one book to the next (as with anything, even if you’re good, there’s always still room for improvement). I always want new readers to be able to start off reading my best work. So, I actually encourage people to always start with what’s newest.

As for this book specifically, Lilly was always intended to get her own book. I knew it from the moment I introduced her. Her character development, some of the things she’s been through, thinks, and feels, are all deeply personal to me in one way or another. In my writing, I tend to use the enthralling fantasy plots and intense romances to make palpable the more serious topics I address (as do most authors, at least the ones I read). Underneath the fun of the story is a lot of important commentary regarding what life after trauma actually looks like and why its okay if you never go back to “normal” (gag, I hate that stupid word), along with other topics surrounding racism, bigotry, forced labor, poverty, and more. This book came out of me when it did for a reason. With the state of the world being what it is, art and literature are more important than ever. It’s no secret that reading helps people develop a stronger sense of empathy and increases literacy, so I write to make sure people can accomplish those goals in a fun and accessible way. Lilly is the perfect character to help me accomplish that because she has such a unique perspective that allows for both a brutal rage and a kind heart.

Also, though, I love priestess characters.

What sorts of things are you doing to help boost yourself coming up to the release?

So, so many things. Of course, there’s the social media aspect. I hired a PA to help me with content creation. Her name is Jazmine (@jazzys_books & @apenandapromise on IG). She’s been great. Having her helping me out has done wonders in terms of freeing me up so I can A) focus on writing other books, B) focus on contacting bookstores (both previously partnered and new to me), libraries, planning events, and contacting book bloggers/influencers to seek partnerships, and C) managing and distributing ARCs, running ads, and connecting with readers directly. With all of that going on, I’m sure you can see how sparing myself that 3ish hours/week on making posts is actually so helpful (plus I literally suck at coming up with stuff to post. I’m still at that stage in being an author where I freeze up any time I’m asked what my book is about or am expected to speak out loud.) (If you happen to be a more popular author reading my blog, please let me know if and when that will go away? LMAO.)

Anyway, as things happen, you can hear all about them on any of my socials. Here’s my Instagram, my Bluesky, my Threads, and on the home page of this website, you’ll also find a form to sign up for my email list (I won’t spam, I promise).

That’s all for this week! I hope you’ll drop in again next week for another segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Fictional Crushes

Heyyyyy! How are all my nerdy peoples? If you’re new here, welcome! This is Nerdology 101 and I’m your resident nerd, Maria Levato. This week I wanted to dive into the topic of fictional crushes (from my experience, every nerd has them. No need to be shy about it). I’ll be sharing a few of my own, but also discussing them in a more broad sense. With that being said, why don’t we get started with some NERDOLOGYYYY?

Experiencing a romantic or sexual attraction to a fictional character is a pretty common occurence. From the “Hear me out” cakes on social media to the existence of BookTok/Bookstagram/Booksky a lot of people have come to terms with that fact. In fact, many of us have built entire communities around our fictional crushes. This phenomenon has been around much longer than these communities, though. Back in the ancient time of the millenial, those of us who embraced fictophilia were often outcasts and it was hard to find people who could relate. Do you know what I would have given as a kid to know I wasn’t the only one waking up at 5AM to watch Inuyasha because I had a crush on Sesshomaru… and Inuyasha… and Koga…? (I don’t have a problem, I don’t have a problem). Nowadays, though, my list of fictional crushes extends beyond anime and other cartoon characters. Characters from books such as Nikolai Sokolov and Rayne have also taken me by storm.

So, why do so many of us experience this attraction to fictional characters so intensely? It’s simple, really. Knowing they’re not real doesn’t change the fact that they fulfill a real need. The need is often for safe spaces to experience romance, partners who are emotionally open to us, and sometimes even to explore fantasies we can’t safely explore irl for one reason or another. In most cases, this is healthy and can have a positive impact in helping people better define their needs in a human-to-human romance. People who don’t know what they’re looking for tend to end up in bad relationships. These fictional crushes can help us to better understand ourselves, what we’re looking for, and learn how to communicate that to a potential partner. What many view as a form of escapism, I view as a potentially theraputic outlet for exploring ourselves and our desires.

Now that I’ve said as much, let’s talk about my top fictional crushes from each of my nerdy realms:

1. Anime - Vanitas and Noe (The Case Study of Vanitas)

   Yes, I count them as ONE fictional crush because I wouldn’t want to be with one unless the other was also present. While they’re both hot and I acknowledge some part of this has to do with an MMF fantasy, they also fulfill different needs. Vanitas is passionate, wild, obsessive, and capable of embracing my particular brand of insanity. He’d be the perfect partner for the enemies-to-lovers, banter-y arguing part of my desires. Noe, on the otherhand, is sweet, affectionate, and loyal above all else. I’d find that fulfilling in the moments that I just wanna curl up and cuddle. I can totally picture him letting me lay my head in his lap and read a book without interrupting me—just being glad to have me close. Together, they make a perfect boyfriend.

2. Gaming - Kaeya (Genshin Impact)

   Kaeya has a flirty nature, relaxed vibe, and a bit of a mysterious element while also remaining a safe guy. I think he has broad appeal that most people who’re attracted to men can get into. It’s easy to consider him my top gaming crush.

3. Books - Samkiel (Gods and Monsters by Amber V. Nicole)

   Samkiel is ideal in pretty much every aspect. I’d have zero complaints. If I listed every aspect of him that I love, this blog post would never go up because I’d likely spend the rest of my life completing that list.

4. Special Mention: Atem (Yu-Gi-Oh)

   What do you mean he’s an ancient Egyptian pharoah with a tiny ball of fur that can take out Blue-Eyes White Dragon?! Of course I love him. Lol.

   Anyway, who are your top fictional crushes? Let me know. As always, I’ll be back next Friday at 3PM EST for the next segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Rabbit Holes

There you are! Here to hear me rant about some Nerdology? Of course you are because you’re a good little nerd. Yes, you are. Such a good nerd.

Welcome back to Nerdology 101, I’m your host, Maria Levato, and this week I wanna talk about my beloved rabbit holes (they are sacred and necessary. Do not come for them or I will hiss at you). Rabbit holes are the centerpiece of all my best writing, so today I’m going to tell you about a few of my recent favs. Whaddya say? Wanna get into some Nerdology? Let’s gooo!

1. How I Define the Difference between Rabbit Hole and Regular Research

   Could I have effectively written what I was trying to write without knowing this? If yes, it’s probably a rabbit hole. I do note, though, that the fact that I could write something without the information doesn’t necessarily mean there’s no benefit to writing it with it. Oftentimes, I find that writing with the additional information is the difference between producing something that sounds right to someone with no familiarity and producing something that sounds right to someone who knows. For example, geography. I once wrote a short story where a majority of the events took place in Dublin, Ireland. I could have convincingly wrote some version of “We ate at a restaurant by the River Liffey.” and most American’s likely would have accepted that as enough detail. Instead, I wrote that the characters ate at PHX Bistro, a small restaurant by the River Liffey. That’s a detail that would help the story feel more like its truly happening in Dublin to someone from Dublin, or to others that have been there. It wouldn’t necessarily have been bad writing if I didn’t name a specific restaurant, but that little bit of detail made it a bit more tangible. Of course, that’s not a rabbit hole in and of itself because I didn’t research that so much as I just knew it from travelling, but it’s a great example of how a detail might make a big difference in how convincing the writing is. Thus, my argument that rabbit hole as sacred stands.

2. Recent Rabbit Hole - Demons

   (Note: For context, it’s useful to know that I write romantasy. Romance that is central to the plot based in a completely fictional world of my own making. However, there’s a paranormal and mythological element in the sense that my characters are often angels, demons, gods, priestesses, etc.. My magic systems and set ups are often based in a slew of different beliefs, taking elements from them to create something original. So, my research is often in finding those puzzle pieces from various belief systems, cultures, and periods of history to build it).

   For reasons I can’t explain without spoiling future releases, this one was extremely useful. So, did you know that the modern word demon comes the Greek word Daimon, which just meant deity? There was no evil connotation on the word until the Catholic Church came into the picture. Presumably, the word Daimon being used to refer to deities that weren’t their preferred deity and therefore it picked up a negative/evil connotation as they gained more power throughout Europe since they were monotheistic and viewed the worship of other deities as an evil act. But yeah, demons are pretty much just deities and whether they are a threat or not depends mostly on who you are and what demon you’re interacting with. Not every demon we see discussed in texts about them is necessarily hostile towards humans. The Lemegeton, for example, talks about demons, but it also goes into detail when classifying them. It speaks about their personalities, the danger or lackthereof in interacting with them, and more. This sort of implies that there was an understanding in medieval Europe, at least among those who sought out this type of knowledge, that demons weren’t necessarily evil. That understanding prevails today in some ways, though its became increasingly less prevailing for a few decades because of media portrayals, then took a turn in more recent years where that understanding started to revitalize itself. Needless to say, there are plenty of people who still cling to the evil connotation of the word, but it only really holds up when held under the lens of a monotheistic theology.

   Point being that etymology proves quite useful in writing fantasy. Knowing this helped me lead a character to a huge moment of self-discovery that I was able to write extremely well because I had gone down the rabbit hole to get the right information to make it work. It was also just fun because it set off a slew of personal research that really doesn’t have anything to do with what I’m writing, but I’m enjoying it quite a bit. I like learning about these things, and who knows? Info that isn’t relevant to my writing can occassionally resurface later as being exactly what I need. It’s sort of unpredictable that way.

3. Recent Rabbit Hole - Mesopotamia

   Another topic I recently had to do some digging on was Mesopotamia, the gods of the culture and time, and it’s geographic placement compared to modern maps. My findings were prettty cool. I hadn’t looked into Mesopotamia too much before this so I went in with very little background knowledge to base my research on, which is rare because usually these types of things are matters I’m led to write about because of an interest I already have. In this case, though, it was a bit more random. I liked that because it left so much room for inspiration since everything I was getting was new to me. It also gave me a path to learning about Iran a little more (when looking into museums and historic sites) and develop an interest in the culture.

   Because what I was looking into was so broad, I can’t go into all of it here, but I will talk about a point that I found particularly useful. Separating dynasties is an important point when discussing Mesopotamia. Mesopotamia was a region more than it was a reference to a specific civilization. Most information is a bit more specific to the empire that was ruling it at the time. There were quite a few changes in power, but for my purposes, I was focused on periods of Sumerian and Akkadian rules (probably what most people are thinking of when they say Mesopotamia. About 3,200B.C. to 2154B.C. for both dynasties). In the dates is a fact that took me a while to wrap my head around. The Old Kingdom era of Ancient Egypt was roughly from 2686-2181B.C. Which means there was a fairly decent overlap in dates where the Akkadian empire and the Old Kingdom of Ancient Egypt existed at the same time. The Great Pyramids of Giza were constucted a few centuries prior to the fall of the Akkadian dynasty. I’m sure you can imagine all the ways a fantasy writer could utilize that bit of information. Oh yeah… That alone was gold to me. Not to mention all the other great stuff I found while researching. I’m so excited with how its turning out on the page too!

   I hope you all enjoyed hearing about some of my recent rabbit holes. Have you had any of your own of late? Let me know. I’ll see you back next week for another segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

   Sources

   https://www.history.com/articles/mesopotamia

   https://egymonuments.gov.eg/en/monuments/the-great-pyramid

   https://www.britishmuseum.org/learn/schools/ages-7-11/ancient-egypt/timeline-ancient-egypt

   https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/demon#word-history

Nerdology 101: Kink Safety for Beginners

This blog post is intended for adults. It is not recommeded for those under the age of 18.

Hiii! Welcome back to Nerdology 101. I’m your host, Maria Levato, and this week we’ll be going over some kink basics for those who may wish to explore bits and pieces of their smutty fantasies in real life. Let’s get into some Nerdology!

1. Consent

   The first and most important point is that when indulging in any form of sexual activity consent is key. Nothing you do not want to happen should be happening. For this reason, it’s best to define boundaries before any play begins. Talk to your partners. Be clear about what you’re looking for, what is and is not okay with you, what your expectations are, what kinds of aftercare you think you’ll need, and literally any other topics that will help define the situation.

2. Take it slow

   Kink is not something you just wake up one day and start exploring at full-throttle. Doing that is extremely dangerous and could result in harm to you or your partner(s). While I don’t consider any kink totally “off-limits”, I do think there are steps. For example, if your interest is in impact play, you should probably try some light spanking before you pull out a whip. Liking the way you imagine a kink or a concept of a kink does not always equate to actually liking the kink itself. Sometimes, you want to try something, you do, and then you hate it in practice. Slowly building up to more intense play is an important step. This is even more important with certain roleplay-type kinks like CNC and Primal Play because you and your partner(s) need to have enough experience, trust, and communication built up to prevent a fun and healthy exploration of a fantasy from becoming an assault.

3. Learn from someone more experienced than you

   First-timers are always welcome here, but experience is important. If neither you or your partner(s) have any, please find someone who does. You can do this by attending a munch, visiting a BDSM club as an observer, or discussing it with those at your local kink shop (in my experience, they are usually willing to help guide newbies—or provide them with resources that might help them). Many of the people you meet in these spaces have been doing this for years. They can give you general advice on safety, best practices, communication, questions you should ask that might not be so obvious, etc. They can also tell you ways certain tools should be used. Improper use of kinky devices can be risky.

4. Trust

   We touched on this a little in the first point, but there’s more to say in this area in particular. Kink requires an extreme amount of trust. I don’t care if you’ve known someone a month or 10 years, if you cannot say with absolute certainty that they will a) stop when told, b) adhere to any lines you have, c) understand that what you allow them to do during play does not equate to how they’re expected to treat you outside of it, I do not advise engaging in kink with them. If these elements are not present, there’s not enough trust or respect for a kink dynamic to be implemented in a healthy way.

5. Beware of the Internet

   The irony of telling you to be cautious about what you see/read/observe on the internet while speaking to you on the internet is not lost on me, but its also so important. Predators are abundant in the world, but they get amplified on the internet. Many of them use the words kink or BDSM as a broad cover for toxic, unhealthy, sickening behavior. The kink community does NOT condone this type of behavior. Don’t play with someone who uses “I’m a dominant” as an excuse to steamroll you. If you lean dominant, also don’t forget that subs should have lines and that being a dom/domme doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to have lines too. In fact, you should have lines. If someone says something along the lines of “I’ll try anything”, they either haven’t thought this through or they’re making assumptions about what your “anything” entails. I’ve had people say that to me before, but when I question it and start throwing out kinks, they have to backtrack and think about it more. In order for clear communication to take place between partners, a certain amount of self-reflection also has to take place. No one should be okay with “anything”. Boundaries and lines might change as the dynamic progresses, but it should never be assumed to have changed, it should never be expected to change. Make sure that content you consume for the purpose of learning is coming from someone who cares about safety. The smutty books we read are FICTION. Understand that a healthy exploration of kink/BDSM doesn’t look exactly like it does in books. Sure, you can reenact some scenes, but you cannot skip these essential steps leading up to that point without incurring serious risk of harm.

   With that, I’m going to wrap this blog post up! I’m a bit short on time this week, unfortunately. But, please remember that these five points are a starting point, not a finish line. Kink dynamics require a lot of thought and effort. At the bottom, I’ll include a few other resources (I’ve vetted these, but I still enourage you to vet them so you can get some practice with questioning things before trusting them) that might help you on your journey. Thanks a ton for dropping by Nerdology 101. I’ll see you back next week for our next segment. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Resources for learning about kink:

https://bdsmtest.org/select-language - figuring out what dynamics might interest you.

https://www.gstherapycenter.com/blog/2019/3/8/kink-safety-what-you-need-to-know - general safety

https://www.thepomegranateinstitute.com/the-abcs-of-bdsm-safety-acronyms - acroynms commonly used

https://expansivetherapy.com/blog-detail/new-kink-therapy - safety + mental health

https://www.chattingwiththelightkeeper.com/your-ultimate-guide-to-exploring-bdsm-and-kink/kinkopedia-the-ultimate-bdsm-d-s-terminology-guide/how-to-navigate-understand-and-stay-safe-at-bdsm-kink-events/ - Practical safety tips and knowledge for attending munches and other kink events.

Nerdology 101: The “Smut” Convo

This blog post is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18. If you’re a minor, please check with a parent or guardian before proceeding.

We’reeee backkkk! Welcome to Nerdology 101. I’m your host, Maria Levato. This week we’re going to talk about the word smut. I’m not going to waste any time getting into it because this is already going to be a rant. So, let’s get into some Nerdology!

If you read this blog, my books, or my social media content, it’s probably no suprise to you that I love smutty books. I love reading them, writing for them, and today I love advocating for them because by now we’ve all seen the shift start to happen.

I’m going to say this loud and fucking clear: There’s nothing wrong with sex. Sex is normal. It’s healthy. It’s enjoyable. Therefore, there is nothing unclean, shameful, embarrassing, or wrong about reading smut. It’s a book. The fact that sex happens in a book doesn’t reflect whatsoever on its literary value or relavance. In fact, it adds value in the sense that it highlights ideas that push forward social movements such as sex positivity, feminism, and LGBTQIA+ rights—all of which I stand by firmly.

The word smut, in this context, is one the bookish community used to refer to these books when BookTok, Bookstagram, and other bookish social media tags started becoming more popular. It was used primarily as an inside joke that brought joy to the community. Anyone who has actually read these books is unlikely to see them as simply being pornography. Recently, however, we’ve started to see a rise in people who are using the word smut to diminish the books, the people who read them, and the people who write them. As such, the language has started to change. I’ve seen more and more people beginning to avoid the word smut altogether. In leiu of it, they’re leaning towards softer, less direct options like spice—which has been used for a while, but not in the way that it’s happening now where it’s being used to avoid stigmatization. With that being the case, many have begun to debate which words should and should not be used. In this post, I’m going to give my thoughts on why we shouldn’t let go of the word smut or otherwise soften our language.

1. What message are we sending?

   When we communicate, word choice matters. That’s why an author will some times spend hours searching for that perfect word. When I stop and ask myself what message we are sending with our word choices regarding sexual content in books, here’s what comes to my mind (I cannot speak for everyone. I’m giving my perspective and that’s all.):

   “I read smutty books.” - I confidently read sexual material with the critical engagement necessary to understand that books containing it often offer great stories, diverse voices, powerful social commentary, and that the act of reading it is a form of empowerment that affirms for me that my pleasure, autonomy, and needs matter both in and outside of the bed.

   “I read spicy books.” - This does NOT automatically imply that the person speaking doesn’t feel the same way as the one who says they read smut. It does however require more thought. In the bookish community, I’ve never seen anyone use a smut scale because of the implications behind the word, but spice scales are frequently used. The translations of these scales often vary widely. For one reader, Fourth Wing may be the spiciest book they’ve ever read. For another reader, it could be a one or a two on a scale of one to five. I think that matters because it means using the word spice allows a massive amount of interpretation that can lead to some misunderstandings. So, by using the word, you’re allowing the other person to judge your meaning based on their scale. Because of this broadness, the message you’re sending with your word choice is less clear. I can’t tell based on the sentence alone if this person is quietly capitulating to purity culture or if they are loudly and intentionally rebelling against it in their own way. Thus, I have to assume someone who loudly and intentionally perpetuates purity culture would be pleased by this because it leaves room for them to twist things in a way that may or may not align with the intention of the person saying it. I can see people using this type of soft language to make it seem like “Oh, so this is something you know you should be ashamed of” even though that argument is easily dismantled by anyone with a critical thinking skills. The danger of it, though, is that not everyone has critical thinking skills. Moreover, the crazies would rather not think critically if what’s being said inflates their false sense of superiority and makes them look justified in their oppression.

2. Infantilization

   We’re fucking adults. It is insane to me that a bunch of adults cannot speak about sexual content in a direct way. The softening of the language is reminiscent of arguing on a playground about who has cooties. This probably has a lot to do with censorship on social media platforms as well, but it has a real impact. This soft language and avoidance reaffirms stereotypes (particularly when it comes to women). It allows people to imply shame, lack of assertiveness, indecisiveness, innocence and corruption in accordance with whatever arbitrary standard they so choose, and other harmful ideas that make it sound like we’re unable to think and act of our own free will. Men talk about sex amoungst themselves. The fact that its considered problematic for women to do the same in regards to books often written with women in mind is a symptom of misogyny and the infantilization that comes with it.

3. Content

   Changing the language we use to discuss content could result in a change the content itself. I love these smutty books and a lot of you do too. So, let’s talk about how erasure of the word smut could lead to erasure of the content. Censorship is a tricky thing. It usually doesn’t start by saying “this type of language is banned”. Outright attacks on words like that are more likely to meet resistance. Convincing people to self-censor is a much easier thing to do, especially on social media platforms because it rewards self-censorship with reach, which leads to engagement, and to sales that a lot of bookish accounts might be depending on for their income. While I acknowledge how difficult it might be for people to cope with this loss of income, I’d argue that the benefit outweighs the cost. If we will self-censor on social media, we’ll eventually self-censor in other ways when that push for it expands. Bookstores and readers may eventually start to move away from carrying smut, which will push publishers away from publishing it, then agents away from representing it, and in the end push writers away from writing it. Even self-published authors have to consider the market and what will sell, it could even result in less smut being available from us too. The issue is bigger than one word. If we allow that word to be erased, we invite them to push for more.

   The impact of it could substantially setback conversations around sex positivity and feminism as I’ve addressed, but it could also setback conversations around LGBTQIA+ rights. I know recently there’s been a lot of conversation around straight women writing MM, but that’s the point—There’s conversation. Representation leads to conversation. Conversation leads to increased understanding of the communities perspective. Increased understanding leads to better representation. I read a fair amount of LGBTQIA+ books written by LGBTQIA+ authors, but I never would have found most of them if I hadn’t been reading smutty MM written by straight women that were already popularized. While I do agree that books by LGBTQIA+ authors should be the priority in LGBTQIA+ genres AND that staight people who write LGBTQIA+ stories need to do better, I think the point stands that without popular smut, I would know less LGBTQIA+ authors and that these conversations about what good representation and allyship look like wouldn’t be happening.

With all of that being said, I will continue to use the word smut because I think the benefits of it are worth protecting. That’s my two cents on this discourse and I hope it helps readers and writers alike think more about the language we’re using and decide for themselves what language they want to use.

Let me know in the comments what your thoughts are! See you back next week for the next segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Thoth

Hey, hey! You, you! It’s time for some Nerdology! No way, no way. You can’t be too excited!

[Clears throat] … Please excuse my outburst. I had to do it at least once and thought this would be a good week because [Insert drum roll] it’s my 10th post! Over the past 10 weeks of hosting and writing this blog, it has become the most visited page on my website. So, thank you all so much for sticking with me. It’s actually a huge help and is definitely boosting my visibility, so I appreciate it.

If you've been here for a while, you already know me. But if this is your first time visit, I’m Maria—the crazy, quirky kinklord of an indie author who runs this blog. I'm happy to have you all here and for that reason, this weeks post will be a bit special. I’ll be doing a bit of a deep dive on my favorite deity: Thoth. Most of you have probably heard the name before, but for those who haven’t, Thoth is the Egyptian God of wisdom, writing, science, the moon—pretty much everything a nerd could ask for, right? I thought so too. Let’s get into some Nerdology!

Thoth (originally called Djehuty in Egyptian) was an awesome god. I listed a few of the areas where he’s noted above, but there’s more. How Thoth came into existence is a bit debated. According to some sources, he was born from Ra’s lips asexually. Others say that the god literally created himself. What is clear, in any source, is that Thoth was revered and that Egyptian mythology placed him as a central figure. A lot of gods depended on him in some way or another. He had a hand in judging souls as they moved to the afterlife. He advised Seshat, Osiris, Horus, and other gods. Perhaps most importantly, though, is the fact that this god knew everything. Period. Every scrap of knowledge there was to know, he knew it. Now, I like to learn, but that’s a lot of stuff to know.

One of my favorite things about Thoth is that he’s so intersectional. Thoth is equally associated with science and math as he is with art and philosophy, literature—even mediation. He did it all. It’s nice to think of it that way. In the modern age, it always kind of feels like there’s this huge divide between the humanities/liberal arts/art and STEM where it’s constantly a choice between one or the other. Either we invest in STEM or we invest in the arts? If we prioritize science, non-STEM subjects become “useless degrees”? It’s all very black and white, one or the other. We seem to have forgotten the word “and”. Thoth, to me, serves as this sort of ancient reminder to place equal importance on all of it because they’re all important aspects of intelligence. It would probably seem crazy to such a god to place more weight on one form of knowledge than another.

Thoth was so important to the Egyptian pantheon that he was one of its first gods. We can trace him back to the 25th century BCE. Roughly, that places our earliest accounts of Thoth’s worship within a few centuries of the Akkadian rule of Mesopotamia, making this god pretty freakin’ old. Of course, that’s not to say Thoth doesn’t still have his following today. Many self-identifying witches seek his guidance. Here, you can see one such practitioner talk about their experiences with the deity, and here, we see that later pantheons recognized that their own god, Hermes, was an iteration of Thoth in their own culture. The Romans also had their own iteration of him in Mercury too, hence the planets astrological associations with communication, curiosity, and versitility. It’s the “messenger” of the astrological world.

As a writer and a lover of knowledge myself, I’ve always taken a great interest in Thoth. He’s one of the few deities I can identify with. Of all the tales various religions tell, not many of them register with what I’d see as god-like. Thoth makes a lot of sense to me as a god, though. Knowing things that mortals, and even other deities, are unaware of. Being a sort of vessel for knowledge, literature, and art sounds like something a god would do to me.

I’ve been known to embrace witchy concepts, although its worth noting that I wouldn’t call myself a witch (I just have a deep respect for them and think they could be closer to “right” about spirituality than most humans). For me, I view religion of any kind through an academic and/or culturally curious lens. But, I do hold certain ritualistic things that I do not necessarily because I believe a deity is on the other end of them, but because the practice is something that helps me psychologically. So, yes, you could say that on several occassions, I have connected with the idea of Thoth during those practices—if not the deity himself, then with the ideas the archetype embodies that I identify with on a deep enough level to consider it spiritual. These moments fuel the curiosity that comes to life when I write… or travel… or watch something that brings up a question… or just about anything because I tend to get curious often. I consider that, in and of itself, a form of honor to Thoth and deities like him, who, whether they exist or don’t, inspire humanity to pursue the creativity and knowledge they stand for. As intangible and unprovable as the concept of a god is, there’s no denying that the impact mythology has had on us as a species it. Ultimately, unlike many gods, I see the idea of Thoth and his iterations as one that has a net positive impact on the world and that’s not something I would say about many deities, modern or ancient. That’s why he’s my favorite deity and one I consider myself connected to.

That’s about it for this weeks Nerdology 101 post. I’ll see you back next week for the next segment of Nerdology 101! If you want to know what the topic will be, I post weekly topic reveals on Saturdays across my socials! (Meta: @malevato6 , Bluesky: @marialevato.com ). Until then, have a nerdy week!

Source List:

https://www.ebsco.com/research-starters/religion-and-philosophy/thoth-deity

https://egyptianmuseum.org/deities-thoth

https://www.metmuseum.org/essays/the-akkadian-period-ca-2350-2150-b-c

https://www.metmuseum.org/art/collection/search/700048

Nerdology 101: Diversity in the Nerdom

Hello and welcome back to Nerdology 101, the blog where, at least for this week, I say things that should be obvious because the Nazi’s among us don’t seem to get the point that they are the only ones that aren’t welcome here. This week we’re talking about diversity in the nerdy world. So, let’s dive right in.

The nerdy community wouldn’t exist without diversity. Let me say it louder for the people in the back: THE NERDY COMMUNITY WOULDN’T EXIST WITHOUT DIVERSITY.

Being a nerd is a concept that began its evolution some time between 1930 and 1980, according to Merriam-Webster. While the etymology of the word isn’t extremely clear, we do know that it has taken on a few different meanings since its creation. It’s been used to call people socially inept, intelligent, socially inept with intelligence, and more. Today, we mostly use it to describe those who are enthusiastic and knowledgable about a niche topic such as gaming, books, anime, etc. This is important to remember because the concept of nerd we know today didn’t even start to form until the 90’s. Millenials fueled and witnessed the shift ourselves when we woke up at 5AM every day to watch Inuyasha on Adult Swim and popularized series Divergent, Hunger Games, Dune, and Lord of the Rings. Thus, nerd culture is still relatively new to society.

Part of the reason nerd culture took off with such ferocity is because it reached the disinfranchised. Do you know how rare it was to see a Black person in a TV fantasy series in 2006? How about a Black person who wasn’t depicted in a racist way or who only showed up once for five seconds only to never be seen again? Bleach did it, though. Most popular is the character Yoruichi, who we all know and love, they also had quite a few others who were well written with brown skin. The same goes for Naruto—though there were flaws in the way they did it—characters like Karui and Darui are met a need American media was completely ignoring at the time. This type of representation attracted diverse communities that drove the success of anime. In these statistics released by Crunchyroll in 2024, we see that the amount of Black anime fans has been rising drastically with each generation with only 9% of Boomer anime fans being Black, 13% of Gen X, 19% of Millenials, 23% of anime watchers in Gen Z. That’s almost a quarter of anime fans in Gen Z that are Black. If you include other ethnic minority groups, 48% of anime fans in Gen Z are not White. Beyond ethnicity, over 1/3 of the total anime watching community across generations is women with the highest two generations (Millenials and Gen Z) both being over 40% and 32% of across generations identifying as LGBTQIA+ in some way. These are massive portions of anime’s fanbase. Without that diversity, the style would take massive hits likely resulting in worse animation, storytelling, etc. More than that, though, it’s insane to call yourself a nerd if you hate such a large portion of the community you’re identifying with.

Aside from anime, we also have substantial diversity in the bookish community, gaming community, and every other aspect of nerdom. Just recently, a Mixed race author who I look up to, Amber V. Nicole, topped the USA Today and NYT Bestseller lists with her new release, The Wrath of the Fallen in the Gods and Monsters series. Julian Winters made the Marie Claire “25 Best Romance Books of 2025” list with his book I Think They Love You. Tracy Deonn, Analeigh Sbrana, Harley Laroux, and the list goes on—diverse authors are thriving with the support of diverse readers. We would lose a ton of great writing without the diversity that is getting attacked by so many.

In information released by Women in Games, 53% of gamers are men and 46% are women with the remaining 1% being non-binary or putting “I prefer not to say”. 38% of gamers are an ethnicity other than white. Thus, this extends to gaming as well. Every corner of the wider nerdom is filled with diversity. So, why is it that the bigoted ideas that harm so many within the community still thrive? The only answer I can come to is silence. So many are afraid to speak up when something is wrong for fear that no one will stand with them and that they’ll only isolate themselves further. In a video posted by Tony Weaver Jr. following the death of a Black cosplayer named Ash, he calls for us not just to be more inclusive towards Black people in the nerdom, but also for us to be more exclusive towards those who making the sort of bigoted comments that led to Ash’s death to begin with. This sort of hatred has no place in our community and I agree with what Tony is saying here. We need to drive the hatred out by making it harder for it to exist in the first place. Our community will be better for it, just as it has been better for the increased diversity throughout the generations.

That’s all I have for you this week. Drop in next Friday at 3PM ET for our next segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Interview w/ Eliwood S. Gheist from The Hook and Quill Press

Hey, hey! What’s up, nerds? I’m Maria Levato, self-proclaimed nerdologist and indie author, back once again to bring you another segment of Nerdology 101. Today, we have a very special segment featuring Eliwood S. Gheist (she/they) from The Hook and Quill Press, making this our very first interview. Before we dive in, I want to take a moment to thank her for joining me. It’s so exciting for me to have my first interview and I hope you all enjoy it.

Now, let gooo!

Maria: “What is your role at Hook and Quill?”

Eliwood: “I am the CEO, and primarily that means signing paperwork and running the social media accounts. We started this company as a co-op, and every member has put in an incredible amount of time and work to get us here.”

Maria: “Tell me about the formation of Hook and Quill? Your website mentions that it was born of a writing support group, what did the evolution from that to being an indie press look like?”

Eliwood: “Many of us met on Bluesky, particularly through the WIPSnips promptgame. Being all writers of similar mindsets, we tried making a Discord where we could support each other through the trials of all phases of writing; brainstorming, drafting, editing, querying. Our focus has always been on uplifting each other and encouragement, and I think that naturally helped us all start to feel more confident in ourselves and the future. We commiserated about the difficulties of getting published, and talked through the merits of tradpub versus selfpub. One of the main struggles of self publishing is having to handle every aspect alone; proofreading, book design, marketing. The joke became “what if we started our own publishing company?” And gradually, it just stopped being a joke, and became a hypothetical: “What would it actually take for us to be able to do that?””

Maria: “When producing books, what does the process look like internally? Does Hook and Quill function more like trad or self-publishing, or is the approach new altogether?”

Eliwood: “We are in the process of producing our first book, and while we have planned out the process as much as we could, there’s still more to learn with every step. The first step is to assign roles to members who volunteer for them; things like proofreading and formatting the manuscript. We develop a social media promotion campaign, and schedule goalposts for release. After proofreading and edits, we make sure we have cover art and formatting ready. We arrange an interview with the author in our newsletter, as well as potentially on our sister podcast, From Tree to Book Writing Group. And then we think about distribution! We try to go wide, and make sure we are available on as many platforms as possible. We are reliant on the selfpub model at this point, as we don’t really have any funding or ability to order large volumes of books (or any place to store them or any way to distribute), so we’re doing everything using as much as we can by ourselves, and rely on things like Print-on-Demand and word of mouth to get where we want to be.”

Maria: “How many member authors do you have and what have they written?”

Eliwood: “There are six authors, and our happy helper Kelsey Ann. Of the writers, there’s Lizzie Blackwood, Samantha Breaux, myself, T.D. Gonzalez, Emily Klotz, and Kara Moon. There’s more details about what each author is writing and has written on our website (https://hookandquillpress.com/writers/). If you enjoy fantasy, science fiction, horror, romance, queer love, or any kind of story that focuses on character and humor and heart, we’ve definitely got some great books coming out for you!”

Maria: “Are there any new works from members coming out soon?”

Eliwood: “We are releasing our first book Bludeye Beach on January 1st, 2026, and preorders have just opened up! Join Edie Grayson as she navigates family drama and romance, all while trying to figure out the eerie mystery at the heart of idyllic coastal town of Bludeye Beach.

“We’ve got a few other titles in line to be released throughout the year; keep an eye on Emily Klotz, Lizzie Blackwood, and Samantha Breaux! In addition, we’re going to be releasing quarterly Zines to feature shorter pieces from our writers, if you’re interested in a smaller sampling. These will be available for individual sale, and made available to any of our supporters on Patreon and Ko-Fi.”

Maria: “Are books written by members available widely? Where can readers find them?”

Eliwood: “We are planning a wide release, and would like to make our books available to as many people as we possibly can. The best place for more details will be our website and the HookandQuillPress Bluesky account. We also highly encourage people to request a copy through their local library when they are available. Part of our company mission is to support the writing community, and writers would not be where we are without libraries!”

Maria: “Is Hook and Quill currently accepting submissions? If not, do they have plans to accept new members in the future?”

Eliwood: “At this time, we are not accepting outside submissions or new members, primarily because there’s a lot that we’re still figuring out. But who knows what the future holds!”

Maria: “How can readers keep up with the happenings of the press?”

Eliwood: “We have a monthly newsletter that gets posted to our website, Patreon, and Ko-Fi; hookandquillpress.com, and HookandQuillPress everywhere else. If you track us down on one of our socials, I hope you’ll stop to say hi!”

Maria: “What are some of Hook and Quill’s goals for 2026?”

Eliwood: “We want to share the work from our writers with the world, but we also want to uphold our company goals; uplift the writing community and support indie artists.”

Maria: “Is there anything else about Hook and Quill or its members readers or writers may want to know?”

Eliwood: “We are so grateful to be doing this work, and we thank you all for the support we’ve been shown. Check out Bludeye Beach, releasing January 1st, 2026! Preorder your copy now!”

That concludes our interview with Hook and Quill. To support the press, be sure to buy their books, leave reviews, and engage with their content. For more content like this, engage with mine. I’ll see you back next week for the next segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Relevant Links:

https://www.instagram.com/hookandquillpress/

bsky.app/profile/hookandquillpress.com

hookandquillpress.com

https://www.patreon.com/cw/hookandquillpress?utm_source=search&vanity=hookandquillpress

Nerdology 101: Self vs. Trad Publishing

Hi! Welcome back to Nerdology 101. I’m Maria Levato, your nerdy sensei who writes about kink play—and a bunch of other random stuff no one asked about.

Lately, I’ve been seeing a lot of discourse around the merits of self vs. trad publishing, so I’m using this week’s post to address that. Let me give you a hint: Both options are perfectly valid.

There are few industries where we judge the legitimacy of a business by who makes the initial investment. I have never heard someone say “Oh, this store is worse than a different store because the owner paid for it themselves instead of getting investors.” Why haven’t I heard that before? Because it would be insane and most people wouldn’t say it. So, why do we do it when it comes to books? Let’s dive into some Nerdology and find out!

Before the Printing Press

Long ago, there was a world without the printing press. A medieval time where books were—Checks notes, then gasps—made by hand!? Oh, the horror. As you may have guessed, they took a lot of time and money to make. The majority of them were made and collected by religious entities and universities. “Getting published”, as we know it today, didn’t really exist. What did exist, though, is the concept of patronage. Wealthy people, like nobles and royals, would find artists and writers they liked and bankroll them. Eventually, after creating some work, some of the artists and writers would start to get commissions from other wealthy people who wanted a work made by that artist or writer. Publishing houses are the post-printing press version of this, so you can call writers who became published this way early trad authors. On the other hand, you could call writers with the wealth to pay to have their writing produced themselves, early self-published authors.

Good Ol’ Gutenberg and the Printing Revolution

In 1454, we see Gutenberg’s printing press get put to commercial use for the first time where he prints a slew of stuff off for the church. Then, suddenly books (or at least those the church approves of) are more widely available. It’s magic. A ton of people were interested in this because it was a quick and easy way to replicate their ideas and distribute them to a wide audience. It was a Printing Revolution, literally, that’s what it was called. It was part of the Renaissance. You can learn a lot about it by viewing this page from Printing R-Evolution that explores it in depth. For our purposes, though, I’m just illustrating how this became the publishing industry. You see, whoever had a printing press could print and distribute anything. So, having one became a powerful way to distribute materials that would make people more likely to agree with your preferred idealogy. That’s a lot of power. It platformed people like Galileo, who was a radical thinker for his time. It also gave us texts that sparked social movements like the rise of Prostestantism, such as bibles written in languages that aren’t Latin, which were considered heresy at the time. Eventually, people realized that printing and distributing books could be lucrative. Enter: The Publishing Industry, entities who printed and distributed books on behalf of the writer.

Literary Agents

Three to four centuries and a lot of books later, literary agents come onto the scene between 1870 and 1930, depending on location. Their job was simple. Connect writers with publishing houses. This is really the start of traditional publishing as we know it today. From there, traditional publishing became more of a standardized process. Query agents (via snail mail, at the time), get an agent, have that agent submit the work to publishers, get published.

The Internet

With the internet came a revitalization of self-publishing. In 2005, Blurb, an online self-publishing platform was founded. In 2009, Amazon started Amazon Publishing. In 2013, IngramSpark came onto the scene. As with anything, some people got mad about it. They started bashing people who took that path because it went against their expectations of what becoming an author should look like. That’s where it started to get stigmatized.

Social Media

With the rise of Booktok/Bookstagram/Booktube/etc. came change. Self-published authors started to gain stronger platforms and their path became less stigmatized. This led us to the debate I’m seeing today about whether self or trad publishing is better. As I said at the start of this blog post, it doesn’t matter. The difference lies in who bears the initial investment, not the quality of the production itself. I’ve read plenty of trad books that I love and plenty that I dislike. The same applies to self-published books. Trad published books sometimes have editing issues, so do self-published books sometimes. Both formats have different pros and cons. Ultimately, the choice on which format is better depends on the writer and the piece they’re publishing. No matter what a writer chooses, they choose it because it is the best route for them and their work. Some writers choose one path at first and a different path later. Some are solidly on one side of the line or the other. So long as everyone respects everyone else’s decisions, there’s nothing wrong with any of it. It’s okay for people to achieve similar goals by different means. To say a trad-published author is a sell out or a self-published author wasn’t good enough to make it is ridiculous. No matter who bears the initial investment, the quality of the writing is what matters at the end of the day. Read books you like, no matter how they were published, and don’t read books you don’t like, no matter how they were published.

Let me know in the comments what your thoughts are! Did you learn something new about the history of publishing?

With that, I bid you all a good weekend. I’ll see you back next Friday at 3P.M. ET for the next segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Source List (This is a blog, not an academic paper. I’m just dropping the links so people can learn more, not making full citations).

https://guides.library.ubc.ca/historyofthebook/beforeprint

https://independentpublisher.com/article.php?page=1510

https://scarc.library.oregonstate.edu/omeka/exhibits/show/mcdonald/incunabula/gutenberg/

https://www.printingrevolution.eu/7

https://www.transatlantic-cultures.org/es/catalog/agents-litteraires

Nerdology 101: Record of Ragnarok

***Light Spoiler Alert***

Hey, hey! Welcome back to Nerdology 101—the blog where we’re currently freakin TF out because it’s almost time for the new season of Record of Ragnarok! My name is Maria Levato and I’m your nerdy professor here to whip you into shape and keep you up-to-date on all the nerdy happenings. Now, be a good boy/girl, sit down, and enjoy the ride.

ROR quickly made my list of favs back in 2021 when it made it’s anime release (haven’t read the manga at all). Being outside of my normal tastes, I was hesitant to start it back then because I’m normally a romance lover, even other none romance anime that I watch usually feature some romantic elements. ROR, though, is quite different from that. It’s bloody and brutal to the core, but the characters are hot AF and I read dark romance anyway, so why not?

Now, in S3 we’re getting a bad ass line-up. In an article by Fandom Wire, it was revealed that we should expect to see Hades v. Qin Shi Huang, Beelzebub v. Nikola Tesla, and Apollo v. King Leonidas. Out of these, I’m personally looking forward to Hades the most (I’m team gods all the way). ROR has a way of making its most beautiful characters the most ruthless too and I think that means we’re in for a wild fight here. I mean, it’s Hades. It’d be hard to make his character anything less than the absolute wonder that he’s always been. I actually had to look up his opponent, though. I’m not well-versed in Chinese history, but he’s the first emperor of China and founded the Qin dynasty. He also coined the term Emperor in China. You can learn more about him here, if you’re interested, but he built the Great Wall and established the Terracotta Warriors—making him a substantial figure in Chinese history and a human figure who can actually match the legend that is Hades in terms of influence over the respective culture.

The other fights won’t be anything to sneeze at either, though. I think Beelzebub v. Nikola Tesla is an interesting match up. If it weren’t for my personal bias toward Hades, this would be the most interesting match up this season. I feel like this is the most unpredictable of the fights. I can’t even begin to imagine how it goes down. It’ll be great to see what direction they take it in.

As for the last match, Apollo is an interesting choice on the gods front. In Greek mythology, he has a ton of domains, though he’s best known for music and healing, but the one I think the creators might be thinking of is one that’s not so commonly discussed. Apollo is also a god of plagues and disease, as you can see here. I’m almost imagining him showing up in the arena looking all sweet and innocent then using some sort of dark plague magic. It'd be cool to see him depicted that way since other depictions of him usually don’t highlight that aspect of him. I hope they do this.

What are your thoughts and expectations for the season? Do you imagine Apollo’s fight the way I did? Is there one you’re most excited for? Let me know in the comments and I’ll see you back next Friday at 3PM ET for the next segment of Nerdology 101.

Nerdology 101: Ties Between Mythology and History

Hellooo! Welcome to Nerdology 101, the blog where I explore your favorite nerdy topics and you read it because you, like me, are the nerdiest of nerds. My name is Maria Levato, your host, and today, your guide to all things mythical (or at least all things mythical that helped shape the world as we know it).

This weeks topic is the ties between mythology and history. With books like Scarlett St. Clair’s Hades x Persephone series and Abigail Owens’ The Games Gods play, even with anime like Record of Ragnarok, we often see mythology featured in pop culture, but seldom do we stop to remember that mythologies are just religions that most people no longer have faith in. Once, they had power and influence over humans—impacting the decisions leaders made and shaping the history we now learn about. I wanted to take the time in this blog post to explore aspects of history that were impacted by the beliefs of the culture and time. So, lets get into some Nerdology!

Japan

I love Shinto because of how much it influenced (and still continues to influence) Japanese culture. It’s perhaps one of the strongest examples of this phenomena. We see in most religions that at some point, people who believe in it believed they should be governed by a religious leader. This is true in the Pope and European monarchs, but also in other parts of the world, and other times, like Japan. There’s a key difference, though, in Japan, the Emperor has historically been viewed as descendant of Amaterasu’s lineage. For those who don’t know, Amaterasu is the Shinto sun goddess and the chief diety of the pantheon. Today, Japan is primarily ruled by a parliament rather than actively ruled by a monarch, but that wasn’t always the case. Emperess Suiko, the first recorded Empress regnant of Japan, was a ruling monarch (not the only ruling monarch in their history, just one).

Empress Suiko ruled at an interesting time in Japan’s history. It was a time when Buddhism was becoming more popular in Japan. The Empress did something interesting for someone who was descended from a Shinto diety, though: She supported the rise of the new religion, holding the balance between Shintoism and Buddhism. That decision impacted the relationship between Shinto and Buddhism, as we see it today, even though she made that decision between the years 593 and 628. It also laid the foundations for factions like the Sohei to gain traction and become favored by the Shogunate in the 700’s. We see these events later snowball into a series of other events that ultimately ended up influencing a substantial portion of Japanese history. Therefore, we have to believe that without the call for balance that Emperess Suiko made because it was a tenant shared by both Shintoism and Buddhism that Japan may not exist in the way that we recognize it today because so many events that shaped it were impacted by these beliefs.

While most of the world refers to Shintoism as a mythology, aspects of it are very much alive and well in Japan, meaning that it is in many ways still an active religion that co-exists in Japan alongside Buddhism, Christianity, and other religions. Even those who identify with another religious practice often still intergrate Shintoism into their lives. An author and creator by the name of Kyota Ko (IG: @themetroclassic) explores a lot about the history, mythology, and culture of Japan in his work. If you’re interested in learning more about this topic, please visit his website. Kyota Ko has given his permission to be brought up in reference to this blog post. He’s a great source on the topic and I think anyone interested in it would really enjoy his content.

Egypt

Ancient Egypt is another fascinating example of the ways mythology influenced history because the beliefs of the time are a key factor in so much of what we know about the history of Egypt. The hieroglyphics, burials, politics, and culture were centered around Egyptian mythology for so much of Egyptian history. There’s no doubt that at the height of its beliefs, Egyptian mythology impacted Egypt as a whole, which, in turn, influenced the world. It would be easy to draw the same parallel I did with Japan between the pharaohs and the religion since the pharaohs were also believed to be descendants of Ra just as the emperors are with Amaterasu, but there’s another aspect I’d like to focus on here—one I think would be hard to ignore when it comes to Egypt—its influence on European beliefs and history. I choose this because I think it’s important to acknowledge just how wide the impact is in this aspect. Most religions influence their country and culture of origin, but Egypt’s reach stretched across continents, influencing the ways of cultures beyond its own.

Aset, an Egyptian goddess, was the origin of the goddess the Greeks called Isis, as explained here, in a listing from the Egyptian Museum. As you can see here, in an article out of the University of Oregon, that influence touched Roman beliefs as well. Sources from Cornell, Princeton, and other researching entities are provided there too. So, it can be concluded that Egyptian mythology definitively influenced some European mythologies which influenced the shaping of the histories of those cultures, which I’ll explore further in the Greek section below.

Greece

Referencing this article from the North London Collegiate School, we can learn how Greek Mythology influenced literature in works that are still renowned in the modern age. Those works reached Rome and influenced their culture and social norms as well as they did Greece’s. We also see where it impacted the stories told in Christianity. That impact on Christianity is explored in this article out of Columbia University where we see that the Virgin Mary in Christian beliefs evolved from Isis in Greek beliefs, which as we covered previously, stemmed from Aset in Egyptian beliefs. This fascinating web of evolutions of one goddess between cultures eventually met rise of Christianity in Europe, which led to the Catholic Church having so much power, and therefore is the origin of most of the events that took place during the European middle ages where Christianity then decided who became kings and queens, which wars were holy and which were not, and ultimately became the foundation for the entirety of western civilization. To this day, the Virgin Mary remains a prominent and influential figure in the world, impacting not just history already made, but history still in the making. Seeing that, it’s not so far-fetched to say that mythology is history in many ways, given its influence over the way civilization has been shaped in culutres from around the world.

Please, add to all of this in the comments. I’d love it if you all shared more stories of how mythology impacted history in other areas of the world! I’ll see you next week on Friday at 3PM ET for another segment of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Working with a Character Designer as an Indie Author

Hello, and welcome back to Nerdology 101, the blog where I explore all things nerdy and you read it because you’re a good little nerd just like me. That’s right. Good nerd, you keep reading this blog like the little cutie you are. LOL. #PraiseKink - Nerdy Edition. I’m your weekly blogger, Maria Levato, a proud fellow nerd and indie author. Let’s get started!

This week, we’ll be talking about character design! I chose this topic because I’ve been seeing a lot of discourse around it—particularly from other indie authors who keep getting ghosted by people they hire. It’s no good, so I figured I’d do a deep dive and talk about my experieces with it. Hopefully, this helps someone weed out the AI slop and false artists to find that ever-elusive perfect match. At the end, I’ll also name a few character artists I know to be legit.

What are your experiences working with character artists?

I’ve worked with two of them. The first was in 2023. I hired this one off of Fivver. He did great work, designing art for my whole original cast in The Islands of Rune universe. The price was affordable at $75/piece for 6 characters, full body, single pose, no backgrounds. I loved the pieces and it was a great time. Unfortunately, though, we eventually went our separate ways. It’s worth noting, though, that AI wasn’t as much of an issue on the platform a few years ago as it is now. I cannot speak to what searching would be like on there today. If you have worked with someone on Fivver or a similar platform recently, please share that experience in the comments to elaborate on this. However, for the time being, I will say that my experience hiring someone off of the platform was positive and that, if nothing has changed that makes it more complicated, I would recommend using it.

The second time I worked with a character artist is right now. A few weeks ago, I put a call out on Threads asking artists to drop their work in the comments. As you can imagine, a mass of them flocked to the post and I was left with the task of sorting through it all. It was a wild ride, but a good idea. It boosted my engagement and profile signifcantly while also offering an opportunity to people that allowed them to display their work. There were a ton of great submissions, but ultimately, I found my artist. As of now, I’ve commission two pieces from them (one NSFW and one SFW). These two are slightly more expensive than the original two, but this time I also wanted full, exclusive rights to the work and for the pieces to reflect scenes from the book they’re associated with—meaning there we’re backgrounds and more than one character in the images which makes it more complex. Given that, the additional cost makes plenty of sense and is still great for what I’m getting. I paid 50% of the price upfront via PayPal—this is where it goes wrong for a lot of authors—but I wasn’t ghosted! Ever since, I’ve recieved a few updates per week from the designer—which is a huge help in making sure they aren’t using AI—and communication has been consistent. This is mostly the experience we’re going to be talking about for the rest of this post because there’s a lot to learn. We’ll discuss: How I made sure I wouldn’t get ghosted, how I checked for AI on the original post, and a few other key topics that may help someone hiring a character designer for the first time—especially if, like me, they’re still learning how to spot the less obvious AI.

1. Does follower count matter?

   Sometimes, but it’s not an end all be all way of making a judgement about whether you’re dealing with a bot or not. While this can indicate that the profile is bot-run, I’d call it a yellow flag because there are a lot of other things that this could mean. For example, since Meta and TikTok favor white, western, eurocentric content, sometimes someone who doesn’t speak perfect English or has a style that doesn’t fit into that narrow box can struggle to gain a following. Also, there’s new people. Maybe the artist just opened their commissions for the first time or just started pursuing it as an income stream. There’s also the possibility that they’ve been doing this for a while, but haven’t found quite the right combination of hashtags that work for them. Social media is hard. Trust me, I will struggle with it because I’m video shy (I start stuttering and get anxious every time I try to record one). For someone who doesn’t post reels, growing a following is a slow process. So, make sure that you aren’t knocking a perfectly valid artist because of something that isn’t necessarily indicitive of their humanity or talent.

2. Okay, then how do I find the bots?

That’s a layered process. First, give instruction. Tell people to drop their work in the comments. Those who DM you anyway are either bots or people who don’t listen well. You don’t want either because even if they are real, an artist needs to be able to follow the specifications provided in the commission. It’s the same reason those of us who are pusuing trad publishing have to follow the guidelines provided by lit agents/agencies when querying. So, this step will weed out some of the bots, but also some of the people who exhibit signs that they might not be suited for your commission. Next, watch language. One thing I continuously saw that registered as a red flag for me is this one phrase that came up in multiple submissions: “I look forward to your positive reply.” It’s not all that often that I hear a human say something like that, so to see it in multiple subs put me off. Most of people understand that’s manipulative and shifts unfair pressure onto the commissioner to hire. It’s especially weird for an artist to say because it makes the assumption that they’re getting a commission over every other interested party and most true artists respect the work of other artists. Thus, I see that as either a bot or a narcissist, so again, it’ll weed out more bots and people with undesirable traits that might make them hard to work with. Once you narrow it down, DM 3-5 artists. TALK TO THEM. Ask questions. Discuss rates. Talk about the commission. Anything. It won’t take too long for you to notice if the conversation feels manufactured, as if you’re speaking to a bot. This functions as a vibe check and a bot check.

3. And what about the people who are actually people, but are using AI?

Spotting AI is becoming increasingly difficult as the technology continues to invade creative industries, but there are still things you can do to spot it. Lines are a big one. Humans have distinguishable lines around their drawings. Think of a coloring book. Each object in the photo has a clear outline even after its colored in. If we removed that, the picture wouldn’t look quite right to us. AI usually doesn’t have these lines. That’s one way you can spot it. Of course, there’s ways slop generators get around that too. It’s easy to do, especially if they do AI-assisted art. This is where AI checkers come in. There’s more than a few sites that offer this service free. My advice: Use more than one. Some are good at catching certain things, others excel at catching other things. It’s always good to have more than one source. Another helpful tip is that AI is no good at mimicing extremely unique styles. What it generates typically fits into a more generic version of what its prompted to create. If an artist has a style you don’t see all the time, they probably didn’t use AI to make it.

4. That’s good to know, but now, how do I protect myself from people who are just out to scam me?

As with everything, written agreements are the best way to protect yourself. I used Jotform to create mine. Set it so the form is private and only those you send invites via email can access it. Add signature fields and a recaptcha—and if you’re really suspicious, add a second check in the way of a “Select all that apply” question to be extra sure the bots don't get in. Define your terms clearly. Define what the total payment is, what the deposit is, when it will be paid, and when other payments will be made based on your discussion with the artist. Make sure you state clearly that the artist must work within the specifications, not use AI in any capacity, not be affiliated with anything that would have affected your decision to hire them, etc. Make sure it’s clear that violation of terms will void the contract, that they’ll owe you a refund, that any legal recourse available will be pursued, etc. You should also address rights to the work in there. There’s levels to them. For most authors, you either want commercial use or full, exclusive use. Commercial is fine for most authors and will allow you to sell, but it leaves the artist the right to reuse designs made for your characters as long as they aren’t selling them. This isn’t an issue most of the time, one rarely interferes with the other, but in my case, I particularly wanted the designs to be synomous with my book. That comes with an upcharge and most artists don’t default to it. I was lucky to be in the position to pay it when I hired this time. Don’t stress too much if you aren’t, just be sure you know what your liscence includes.

Name your obligations as well. Write it all out. Then, even if you get ghosted, the payment platform will be inclined to reimburst you—or your bank will via a dispute if the platform refuses. Most payment platforms will do it without this, but on the off chance you run into an issue, this is good to have because it acts as evidence that you are owed the refund. The character artist I ended up hiring had no issue signing the agreement and I doubt many legitimate ones would, so long as the agreement is fair and reflects both sides because then, it protects them too. This is a perfect final line of defense. By this point, you’ve weeded out bots, jerks, and most problematic people. The artist you’ve chosen is a vibe match and you get along. You can see yourself working with them and you’re confident in them. This agreement is just there because sometimes even the best of us can make an error in judgement and something slips past us. It never hurts to have something in place just in case. The right artist won’t be insulted by this. If they are, most of the time that’s a them problem. Unless they provide some type of legitimate complaint or are suggesting a reasonable ammendment, don’t fall for the “Oh, you should just trust me.” Real artists are well aware of the struggles indies face when it comes to this and are glad to see that more of us are learning to protect ourselves.

5. I finally have my character artist. Now what?

Congratulations! You made it to the part of the process that’s actually enjoyable. Now, you get started. If you haven’t already sent it to help the artist quote you accurately (some will want you to, others have standard rates), send the artist a document addressing the specifications for your project(s). Go into full detail about what your characters look like, what size you need the images to be, if you want them in scene and if so, what that scene looks like, reference photos, etc. For reference on how much information you should include, my document was 6 pages long for 2 characters, 2 scenes, and there were still holes I had to find reference photos for after the fact because I hadn’t thought of it (positioning for the NSFW scene. Lol. We spent a whole morning exchanging hentai pics to get it right). After that, if you defined a communication frequency with your artist agreement, which I did, you should hear from them with about that frequency unless they have questions. They should send you progress updates so you can see the work as it progresses, reassuring you that its not AI, but also giving you the opportunity to give additional feedback and let them know your thoughts along the way. Feel free to ask questions. Unless you draw too, it’s normal to have things you don’t know or need to ask in order to make sure the art is coming out as you want it to. Enjoy the process, it’s rewarding and is a huge part of bringing your imagination to life. Hopefully, if all goes well, you can return to this artist for future projects and continue to work together.

6. Artists I Feel Comfortable Recommending?

This is the one I’m working with now. As you can tell, I’m enjoying working with them and have zero complaints.

https://www.instagram.com/sincerrio/

This artists was one of my top choices. While I didn’t end up hiring her, she does amazing work and has worked with plenty of other authors, including some very prolific ones.

https://www.instagram.com/whet.paint/

This artist was also one of my top choices. Again, he wasn’t my final, but his work is still awesome and works he’s done for other authors are included in his portfolio.

https://www.instagram.com/officialichigo7/

So far as I know, all of these artists are accepting commissions at this time.

I hope you enjoyed this weeks Nerdology 101 segment. Make sure you let me know in the comments. Share your experiences, ask more questions, recommend topics for future posts, etc. I’ll see you back next Friday at 3PM ET for the next one. As always, have a nerdy week!

Nerdology 101: Fall of Freedom

Welcome back to Nerdology 101! I’m Maria, your fellow nerd, reporting from my desk as I cling desperately to my coffee (one of my cats is after it).

This week, I wanted to talk about the Fall of Freedom movement. If you don’t know what that is or why it matters, you’re in the right place.

The Issue:

Censorship is on the rise across America. According to the American Library Association (ALA), 2,452 different books were targeted for censorship in 2024. That’s a lot of books for a country that claims to free speech as one of its core values. These attacks will only increase as many continue pour fuel on the fire that leads to them. What’s so bad that they don’t want us to read it? Well, if the ALA’s 10 Most Challenged List is any indication, anything written about women’s issues, LGBTQIA+ issues, anti-authoritarism, or racial issues. As with anything, these challenges disproportionally target members of marginalized communities.

Beyond banned books, we’ve seen it in other aspects of life as well. Social media is another example. The censoring of certain language, particularly in a way that softens it (I.E. killed turned into unalived, rape turned into graped, pedophile turned into PDFile, protest turned into music festival.), has grown into a common phenomenon. There’s a danger in that. When we soften the language we’re using to describe such weighy subjects, we start participating in our own censorship and downplaying the seriousness of real issues.

Don’t think for a second this doesn’t apply to you too, anime and gaming lovers. Where do you suppose anime’s like One Piece, featuring powerful anti-government themes, are going to be accessible if speech in disagreement with authoritarian policies continues to be censored? Nerds are just as much a part of this as the rest of us. We’re a community that thrives on living outside of the normal social practices, oftentimes embrassing alternative lifestyles, hobbies, and interests. Censorship is a dangerous road and one that we’ve seen play out many times in media both media and history.

The Movement:

What Fall of Freedom is doing is putting out an urgent call to a community with a long history of getting louder when told to shut up. The artists, the writers, the creatives, and the nerds. They want the anime-loving painter making fan art and the aspiring writer who barely has a platform to speak out against this censorship alongside more prominent names. That’s what this movement is about. Together, we will use our voices through our chosen mediums to let those who target our passions know we will not be silenced.

What Can I do?

The answer to that lies in your creativity and knowledge. Authenticity is key in this movement because our point is that authentic, diverse, and yes—critical—voices matter. Whether you host a reading of a banned book, post on social media, paint or design an image of what censorship looks like—what erasure feels like—it matters. Express yourselves and be sure to put Fall of Freedom’s logo on it so everyone knows you stand with the other creatives who are expressing themselves. Your voice matters and I’m looking forward to watching as they sound off in solidarity with this movement.

Will that even work?

You may ask yourself why this plan would work? Because it always has. The Dark Ages didn’t end because the powers that be decided to stop censoring artists; The Dark Ages ended because artists decided not to comply. Anti-war art during the Vietnam War is another great example here. The unpopularity of that war wouldn’t have been nearly as widespread if not for journalists, artists, writers, and people who were willing to help the masses see and understand what the atrocities truly felt and looked like. Art has always been a match unhesitant to ignite change. That’s why all throughout history oppressive powers have sought to silence creatives. It’s the demonization of the Gaelic language and it’s literature. It’s the books the Nazi’s burned. It’s the information hidden in South Africa during Aparthied. It’s the Indigenous stories that were dragged from their ancestral homes and forced onto reservations with the people meant to tell them. Writers and artists of all kinds have always been able to create change. Those in power wouldn’t be attacking us if we weren’t a threat to their power.

We must once again take our stand against censorship with Fall of Freedom’s movement and beyond. Every voice matters and I encourage you to use yours. No effort is too small or too big. Share a post, make a post, write a poem or a blog, go to an event, host an event—it doesn’t matter what you do as long as you speak up. Fall of Freedom’s webite provides more information as well.

Don’t forget to comment and let me know how you decide to use your voice. I’ll see you back next Friday at 3PM ET for the next segment of Nerdology 101. Have a nerdy week!

The Authors Guild is supporting this movement. Visit their website for more information on how they are standing up against censorship.

Nerdology 101: The Return of “Kakuriyo: Bed and Breakfast for Spirits”

Welcome back to Nerdology 101: The blog where I rant about random stuff and you rave because it’s just so fun! I’m your weekly ranter, Maria Levato. Indie author, fellow nerd, and this week? A very happy anime watcher.

This paragraph contains light spoilers for Season 1 of the anime. If you haven’t watched it and want to be surprised, don’t read it. If you aren’t familiar with Kakuriyo: Bed and Breakfast for Spirits, it’s an anime that originally aired in 2018. It follows Aoi, a young lady who was taught to cook for the yokai pallatte by her grandfather. One day, after her grandfather’s death, an ogre named Ōdanna appears at her home. He swoops her up and carries her off to his realm where he informs her that her grandfather owes a substantial debt to him. As collateral for the debt, her grandfather offered her. To recoup his losses, Ōdanna wants Aoi to marry him. Being a strong-minded person, Aoi refuses and insists that he allow her to work off the debt. To accomplish this, she opens a small restaurant where she serves her food to the yokai staying at his inn. While she struggles at first, she finds her way and eventually her great cooking and kind personality gain her customers and allies in this new world. Still, she grows closer to Ōdanna day by day. End Potential Spoilers.

Now, with Season 2 finally coming out, I’m stoked to see where they end up. Beyond that, the return of Kakuriyo is giving me so much hope for the return of other animes. As we’ve seen in recent years, a lot of them are making comebacks. From Bleach: Thousand Year Blood War to Fairy Tail: 100 Year Quest, and even Black Butler: Public High School and Emerald Witch, many are returning. This phenomenon is hardly a new concept in anime—or any medium for that matter. The difference with Kakuriyo, though, lies in the fact that aside from Fruits Basket, this isn’t happening with romance anime at quite the same frequency.

While I love anime from many genres, romance has a special place in my heart (Duhh. I’m a romantasy author). Beyond the normal stuff all millenials watched that none of us are likely to have recognized as anime at the time (Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, Beyblades, etc), my first intentional consumption of an anime was another beloved romance anime, Inuyasha (and that burn burned about as slow as a burn could burn), which inspired the priestesses in my writing. Since that time, some of my favorite anime have been romance anime. There are so many I’d love to see return. Special A, The Forbidden Academy, and so many others all deserve the same treatment. Don’t even get me started on the way I need more Maid-Sama. I’d love to see more of Misa and Usui. My hope is that we see more of all of these, especially given that Kakuriyo is thriving in this new season. I. Am. OBSESSED.

What animes would you like to see make a comeback? Are there any more that you’ve heard of potentially getting “Fruits Basket treatment”? Let me know in the comments! I’ll see you back next Friday at 3P.M. ET for the third segement of Nerdology 101. Until then, have a nerdy week!